Mom passed January 28,2018 at 4:00 in the afternoon. Five days prior, she had stopped eating and drinking. It was just like that. She was not in pain. She was very peaceful. We basically lived together for 18 years of my adult life. We were oil and water. :) It is amazing how you can forgive for things of the past when someone is very sick. None of it matters. What matters is healing and forgiving.
I grieved, still grieving I guess. 10 years of Alzheimer's wiped me out in so many ways. It changed me. The first few months I was on autopilot. I wish I could tell every employer for three days is just not enough bereavement time. In mid-February of last year, I guess I had a melt-down or break down. I was sick. I just got rid of stuff. Note to self and others - when you are knee deep in grief, do not give away or do a cleaning purge until you can think clearly. You need to make rational decisions not emotional decisions.
Steve and I are still married. To say we have experienced a rocky road is a vast understatement. But he was my rock last year. I look back and think of him carrying mom to bed, watching her when I was tired and needed a break. He allowed strangers to come into the home daily, sometimes twice a day. Hard for an introvert to do.
Tori is still a police officer in Atoka. She is engaged to Cody. They plan to marry this year. They are fostering three little girls abandoned by their parents over two years ago. Their story is several blog posts long. Whew. They are absolute blessings. There is a 4th sister, she is in another home. She shares the same mom, but different dad. We have told her she is welcome to stay with us. They have been to hell and back. Experienced things no child should experience.
Sam enters the field of law enforcement via the prison system. Bless him, he falls into that category of not too sure how to do things and wasn't ready to do things. He finished a year of college this year, not a fan of school, he wanted to enter the workforce. He just did in a crazy, drive me nuts kinda way. Mercy.
I am proud of both kids.
I have so much more to share and update. I want to come back to this spot. I feel safe here.
God Bless,
Becky
