Wednesday, October 31, 2012


I'm still waiting to see if I won the makeover.

The dentist told me they would announce and call the winner on the 1st. I read they would call winner today. Hmmmm

I feel selfish. I want to win. But I know God has a plan. And it will be for His glory.

Candy, Super Heroes, Mummies, and Fairies.

We ran out of candy at 7:40.

We had about 200 kiddos I would guess.

They were sweet and cute.

I had fun.


I sometimes pride myself on saying "we are on routine."  Well, with Alzheimer's you can't really have a routine.

Mom is throwing us all off today (and I am not even there) by going in her room to rest.  That never happens!  She never rests during the day. What is up with that? 

This morning she was up early - so maybe that is it.  She did sleep last night.

She has this thing about her purse.  She is tearing the liner out.  I can't figure that one out.

I have learned to allow her to clean the kitchen at night if she wants to.  I don't help - she wants to do it on her own.  A lot of the time it is stacking dishes up for me - she likes to wash the pots by hand instead of the dishwasher - but that is what she did when she was well. 

Tonight is Halloween - I am betting she will enjoy the little ones knocking on the door - and I am sure she will snatch a Dum Dum sucker from the bowl - they are her favorite.

Sam, you have to........

Gulp....... Study!

After a not so hot report card...I went to parent teacher conferences. I went to the three classed he is struggling in. And was told it is apparent that he just needs to study. Imagine that!

And I signed him up for tutoring.

Sam is not as excited as I over the new plan..... the blank stare that I received as we... ok.... I discussed it was a strong indicator of his feelings and thoughts.

He'll survive.

And so will I.

I hope!!!!!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Random Pictures and Thoughts From One Busy Household

Mom washing dishes  - doesn't everyone wash dishes in a wool sweater and purple pants?

Sam reminded us he is totally comfortable in his masculinity - comfortable enough to weave a hat for FCF/Royal Rangers at Church. He has to make an entire Frontier Outfit.  It is fun to watch.  He is so enjoying it.

I had some dirty dogs last Friday night - this is Barney - he does not like baths - he is miserable the whole time.

Kylee likes to be pampered...and yes I bleached my tub about four times after I finished and the next day - I Lysol'd it.  ha ha ha.

Unofficial Dad.....

To Papa Milton....also known as Diane's dad.

You are kind, funny and the giver of Whopper candy.

When I woke up in the middle of the night as I always do - my thoughts went to something Diane shared with me. Your concern over my insomnia. Trust me I haven't slept through the night in years! I have no clue why!

But I write this to thank you for caring!

Love you!


We-mom and I managed to sleep. It is 4:12 am and she is stirring. But it is much better than not sleeping at all!
I'm not going to turn on a single light. Praying she does go back to bed. I don't know how she managed to stay awake yesterday...she had to be physically exhausted...even if her mind couldn't remember. It seems at some point nature would have taken over.

I have some pictures to share......going to learn how to do it from my phone.

As I lay here I am wondering about the day ahead. And challenging myself not to worry, not to stress, to be positive, and be a better witness.

Monday, October 29, 2012


I'm sorry for being so whiny!

And I haven't forgotten.....

The smile makeover!!!!

Hurricane Sandy....

Pray for those in her path. Pray for our leadership as they make decisions. Pray for those in the path to listen.

Pray pray pray pray

Well Heck----Part 2

Yep...up all night. I'm exhausted.

Mom managed to take pictures down, hide socks, empty lotion you name it.

I do not want to go into work. I'm so tired I am sick and could probably cry if I allow myself. And I just might I
may feel better to have the release.

Please pray for mom to have a good day and a better night. Pray I can focus at work.

And I'm praying for a miracle of another sort. Surely God sees?

Pray specifically for mom to rest and settle. For Melecia.

Well heck!

No sleep tonight!

Mom is pretty bad. She has managed to empty her drawers out and has a mess in her room. I just gave her some milk and she seems to be settling. We shall see.

Once again I'm thankful for extra door locks!

Please pray!

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Walls and doors.....,

I've spent the past hour or so listening to mom open and close her closet doors. And now she is knocking on the walls.

Pray it ends soon. I'm worn out.

We're that house.....

Because we live in a large subdivision...we have a lot of kids and I mean a lot if kids on Halloween. They come in by the truckloads.

I enjoy the little ones in their costumes. The little Disney princesses, the super heroes, cartoon characters, all of them.

But.... I'm the person who gives away cheap candy. Pixie sticks, small suckers and tootsie rolls.

And I usually turn my light out at 8:30!


It has been an up and down day.

I so wanted to go to church and our fall festival. But mom just not doing so hot today. Right now she is resting.

I am sad. I have so much on my mind.

I still want to know....

Who orders purses, knives, coins, jewelry, food choppers and Christmas lights at 3:45 am.

Obviously I'm not the only one who doesn't sleep.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Short term memory.....

Mom has no short term memory. Not one bit. It is one of the most frustrating things to deal with. And I'm sure it is more frustrating for mom to deal with.

Couple it with her not remembering folks and other is painful. It makes you ache.

I must be honest....that mentally she is declining. Ronald Reagan's daughter was correct it is the long goodbye.

Tori and mom......

Tori has developed a new respect for Melecia.

Tori watched mom for four hours today while Steve and I were cheering the Cardinals. I am trying to decide who is more aggravated and flustered. Tori or mom?

I'm betting Tori!

Thank you Tori, we had a good time and it was a nice break for me. Love ya

Final Middle School Game....

Cardinals lost 18-16. It was a good game. They played hard.

Sam said he wants to play in high school.

Go Cardinals Go!

Go Sam go! I'm proud of you #60!

Adrian Rogers

My friend, (my sister by other parents!) ha - Carla sent me this devotional written by Dr. Adrian Rogers. I long ago decided surely God's voice sounds like the voice of Dr. Rogers. Booming yet gentle, firm but loving....,,

October 26

If You Keep Your Eyes on Jesus…

“And ye now therefore have sorrow: but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you.” - John 16:22

When I was a boy and living on the Florida coastline, my brother and I were a little disappointed when a hurricane passed us by because of the exhilaration we experienced leaning into the wind and tasting the salty air! I can remember waves sometimes reaching fifty feet in the air. What a sight! But did you know there has never been a storm to move the ocean floor?

There will be storms that will course across the surface of our lives with raging torment, but the child of God can know a deep-down joy that nothing can take away. If you keep your eyes on Jesus, He will bring a joy that no man can take from you.

Oh, thank God for the steadfastness of His power, love, and mercy. Is your joy full in Christ today despite the winds of adversity?

Who decided?

Who decided that gas would go down .20 cents a gallon but milk would go up .16 cents a gallon?

I sense a conspiracy.

Just call me a party animal.......


Last night I gave the dogs a bath. They were so dirty!

I did some housework because we have Sam's game today. Not that I had much to do because of mom's continual dusting and mopping. And Melecia taking care of all moms stuff like her sheets, clothes, etc. but just wanted to, as my friend, Carla will say "freshen up."

I have a thing about my bathrooms. Every morning before I leave work..I will clean them..,or wipe them down. I pretty much do the same thing at night. It's a sickness! Ha! I guess I am more my mother's daughter than I thought. Ha ha!

It's here....

Cooler weather!

It was 80 something Monday. It is 38 right now!

Friday Musings.....

I am so anxious about the contest.

Praying for a miracle! Thankful for God's provision. When will I learn not to worry?

Sam is punishing me by not talking or eating. He is grounded because of a grade and a icky attitude. Too funny.

Dogs need a bath. Ugh.

Sam has a championship game tomorrow. His last middle school game.

I soooooooo need to get my act together and get organized.

Thursday, October 25, 2012


It has been a long day. I am a bundle of nerves about the contest. I know it is in Gods hands.

Mom was slightly confused tonight...not as bad as last night. We went for a walk at the park before we picked up Sam from football. I'm gonna try to walk with her more. I would like a plain Jane stationary bike. For both of us.

Still have other things I'm praying about.

The Visit.....

The drive took longer than the visit to the dentist.  He just met with me to see if he can do the work.

I so want to win. 

On another note, mom did not sleep that great last night - I am exhausted.   I could just collapse.

Thank you for praying for me.  I am blessed.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Thouroghly confused

Mom is so mixed up tonight. I took video tonight. But I have decided not to post it-mom has always been private. So I'm going to respect that. But she hasn't been mean - which is good . And a relief.

But I'm very sad at how she is tonight.
I hate this disease. I just don't see the purpose of it.

Is it wrong of me to hate it this much? What is God trying to teach me? Teach us? For both parents, three aunts to go through this? For our family to continually be hurt by Alzheimer's. Have we, have I done something?

Tomorrow I may laugh at moms antics but tonight I am just plain sad.


I received a call today. I am still in shock.

I am one of four finalists for the dental makeover contest on a local radio station. I cannot tell you how excited, happy, nervous I name it. I was speechless when they called and if you know me that like .....umm..never happens. Ha ha!

I have an appointment tomorrow at 8:30 to meet the dentist.

I want to win! Please pray.

Am I being selfish? Is it wrong to want to look better? To be confident? To be taken seriously? To want something for myself?

I just know this is a God thing! This is something I've been praying for along with others.

I have my sister Judy, Tori, and my friends Carla (she wrote the first email), Diane, Julie, Nancy, Amanda to thank for writing on my behalf. Their words sweet and encouraging. I am so blessed. All were as excited as me.

Thanks to Melecia who is coming in early on her own time to cover the time I'm normally with mom. She is excited too. She has people praying.

Thanks to Sandusky - my employer and my coworkers for being flexible with my schedule with mom and for allowing me the time off tomorrow. God placed me at the right job at the right time.

Thank you for praying. I cherish your prayers.

Now! I hope I can sleep!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


There is only one thing God wants of us, and that is our unconditional surrender.

Oswald Chambers
Scripture ref.... 2 Cor 5:17

A verse....

Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all who labor and are heaven laden, and I will give you rest.


Trying to cook dinner. Mom has wanted to add butter to everything. She would do Paula Deen proud.



Do you ever give yourself an attitude check? I mean hold yourself accountable?

I often wonder how many times I've messed up and ruined my testimony?

Have I hurt feelings? Made someone mad? Ruined their day? Do they see Jesus when they see me?

The past couple of days I would say no.

Needing to be needed. Wanting to help.

Last night mom was real sweet.

After dinner she said "I want to clean the kitchen and do the dishes."

So I just sat back and she did it. She was so proud of herself and the job she did. I enjoyed not doing it.

And I have written before that she...all of us....needs to be needed. Needs to be useful and have a purpose each day. Mom has always enjoyed the point she couldn't relax. But regardless that is what she enjoyed. She would and still does get excited if I say "let's clean out a closet or the cabinets." She rolls up the sleeves on her beige sweater...grabs her cloth and gets to work. It's cute to watch.

Shame on me for not keeping this at the front of my brain. I need to do better!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Plus side of Alzheimer's

Even though I remember every detail of yesterday and I am still emotionally bruised...

Mom does not.

Talk about a fresh start!

(And we are out of Rice Krispies...uh oh!)


We were blessed to go to church tonight. I'm so glad!

Kids choir sang. They are led by my best friend Diane. They were awesome! I miss serving in this ministry but was so blessed to see then tonight. I am so proud. This is an important ministry. Kids learn songs but they are learning scripture. They are learning to serve and worship. They are learning to not be ashamed to praise God!!!

Worship music was sweet.

I think the message was for me. On prayer. Wow. I have so much respect for our pastor.

I know I have my Bible, I have Focus, KlLove, devotionals.....but nothing replaces worship. The fellowship among brothers and sisters is important. It has been so long since we have been in church. My tank was on empty. A true woman of God prayed and cried with me. I wish I could adequately explain what that meant and still means to me. Or the strength that I received from it. The loneliness, depression, and feelings of failure seemed to evaporate.

I have out loud conversations with God. Wondering if He hears me...sees us.

Please pray that we can go next Sunday morning. We all need it.

3.....2.....and not 1!

A funny from Sam's checkup.

Doctor was talking to him about diet. He said "It's okay to eat one hamburger instead of two."

Sam looked at him as if he wasn't too bright..and said "well I usually eat three hamburgers" (and he does)

Doctor just looked at him... and said"well okay, let's shoot for two."
And then just laughed.

That's my Sam! I love him!


I slept all night. All the way through. I guess I was spent. And this is so rare...whether spent or sleep through the night. For me anyway.

Everyone dogs included are still sleeping. I don't want to disturb the quiet. Sam has a friend over...he was a witness to mom's antics yesterday. He was a champ.

I did better on reaction than usual yesterday....her words were horrible. She would beat on doors, walls. Windows and glass. I am so thankful for all the extra locks. Thankful glass was not broken,

I am sad this morning. I hate Alzheimer's and what it does.

On a lighter note...maybe

I'm watching a police show....what woman allows a stranger in the house to use the phone and restroom?

I am going to gauge the attitudes and mood to see if we can attempt church.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Horrible horrible day

Mom has had a rough day.

I mowed or tried to mow but she did not like me being away from her. I finished but not too happy with results.

After coming in she wanted a bath... So I did that and she immediately turned on me. Like a light switch.
Four hours of being hit, kicked, punched, bit...I was called a slob, that I was full of rot! The names got to me. Those are the mild ones. She was mean to Sam too.

She finally took med. She wouldn't eat she thought she was being poisoned.

She was gong to pour milk on me I stopped her hand...she jerked back and the milk went all over her freshly washed hair. After that she started chilling the heck out.

I want to say I'm not sad, discouraged, tired and drained. But I can't. I'm all that and more.

Pray she sleeps. Pray for a better tomorrow .

Friday, October 19, 2012

What a day!!

Today Melecia took the day off for a wedding. I decided instead of confusing mom more by having a sub, I just took day off.

So I made check up appointments for mom and Sam. We started early. Sam's appointment was at nine. He is healthy and growing. They were blown away by it...because my once sickly asthmatic boy had not been there in a year! I forgot my turn! At one time my car could drive the route to the doctor itself! His visit went fast and we had time between his and moms appointment so I stopped at Walmart picked up a couple of things for a campout Sam is at tonight. Still got to moms about 30 minutes early. I love her doctor but we always have to wait and I have learned never make an appointment after lunch! And wait we did.

But she was finally seen....and except for the mental junk she is doing fine. They want us to encourage her to drink more liquids. Her appetite is good and other than an occasional rough night she sleeps pretty good.

I had a smart moment and packed lunches for our day. I'm determined to stop spending money eating out as much especially with the amount of groceries I buy! We enjoyed the quick bite.

But somewhere between the elevator and her sandwich mom turned into mean mom. We had a time on the way home. And I still had a couple of errands to run. Sam stayed in the car while I ran in and out. She got meaner by the minute.

We finally get home. I can't find my phone. I looked everywhere. So I leave mom and Sam and I head back to last stop...mainly because Sam said he saw it in my hand. It's not there. I come back says"are you looking for the black TV box? I put it over there under the table." I had been calling it but somehow ringer was off.

I had to give her an extra pill for agitation. I blame the change in schedule.

Then Tori calls. Car trouble. Great! So I pick her ... She leaves her car with some friends so they can look at it. They're mechanical. We come back home. She takes my car with the promise of picking Sam up from football, picking up a friend and dropping them off at campsite.

In the middle of all this mom realized she had not dusted or dust mopped all day... So she gets to work and it calms her and Im sure the medicine helped too. I made spaghetti finish in time for kids to take some with them.

Tori's car is repaired...praise The Lord!
I was praying over that car.

Now mom is in bed. Prayerfully she sleeps.

I'm sitting in a dark living room enjoying the fresh air from an open window.

What a day!


Need prayer!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Something to be said.....

About quiet.

How it can be relaxing, restful and spiritually healing.




I saw this set of cups in my cabinet the other day. I brought these from moms. I have no idea what made my eye wander to the top shelf.

But they triggered a memory of my parents.

My dad always always drank coffee from the same orange tupperware coffee mug. That was his cup. I say always but that is not true. When mom had company or visitors over for cofee she made him drink from these cups - with a saucer! He would say every time "Martha, where is my cup?" She would say and look at him as if he had bumped his head and had amnesia and say, "Charles, these are our coffee cups, we drink coffee from these cups."

He would roll his eyes. I guess my mom thought we were the only folks who drank from tupperware and stoneware mugs. Ha ha ha


All I can say if you are currently in office and you campaign at my house - you will be asked questions and be given an opinion. Just ask the three who have stopped by.


I know you were worried....

I managed to sneak using the methods learned as a young mother to go into the kitchen to pour a cup of milk.

(Read two posts below)

Quite proud of myself. Mom didn't hear me! Ha ha ha

Prayer requests

Pray for my sweet friend Diane and her family. Her grandfather passed away. He and his wife were married 70 years! He truly loved God and leaves an awesome legacy. He finished well.

Pray for the family of Ken Childress Sr.
He passed away. Truly a man of God. He too finished well. I have no words to tell you how much his wife means to me. He had a sweet sweet spirit.

We have a guy at work in our maintenance shop who has a history of heart problems. He is not doing that great. His name is Randy. Please pray for him and his wife - she looks worn out.

And continue to pray for me. I need improvement in many areas. I would like child support to be resolved. We have court again in December. I'm not giving up but I hate controversy. We need a miracle. Maybe I shouldn't say what we need...God knows what we need and continues to provide. Daily bread not weekly!

Thankful for a safe night after a night of storms.

Pray for the election! Vote!

Wide awake and a few other things....,

2:15 I'm wide awake. But so tired and sleepy!

Mom has slept. I have heard her get up a few times. That is why I'm trying hard to not make noise and ignore this taste for milk I have.


I think Tori has decided the Guard is not for her. I would have supported and cheered her on regardless of her her choice. I know she is headed in the right direction she must choose the path that will get her there.


Sam was excited to have his first non football Wednesday since the end of July. He came home right after school and was able to go to church without this mother of the year feeding him something wrapped in paper. Ha ha! They do have one more game..,a championship game in two weeks. Go Cardinals!


Work has been busy. When I arrived at work I had 40 new emails and 19 voicemails! What the heck! That was overnight!


A few people including Tori and my sister have entered me in a radio contest for a smile makeover. I have cried reading their sweet words. Selfishly I want to win!


I have an awful headache that Tylenol and Advil are not helping. Ugh. I may be sneaking to get that milk.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012


I'm trying to decide if I want to go back into the world of planners and organizers......

The mystery.....

How are 2013 planners "used" on Amazon? Just wondering.

Tired mom....

Mom is so tired. She went to bed early. I guess last night wore her out. Pray she wakes up feeling good and that she rests well all night.


Is sometimes a perfect dinner!

I'm only 43!

But I am hot! And I am sweating.

I'm generally cold natured.

You know where my mind is at with this? Ha!

Whoo Hoo!

Brighton Middle School football Cardinals are Regional Champs!

In a tight game won in the last three minutes.....,the score 36-30.

Go Cardinals!!'

One more game to go!

Super agitated mom

Borderline violent. Mom was something else last night. I'm tired.
Very tired.

I finally laid down with her. She was fully dressed holding her purse. I was nervous. But she did go to sleep. I finally moved to my bed.

Right now my mind is twirling with things I need to do and things I forgot. Please pray. I need what seems like so much but my God is a big God. He is God!

Sunday, October 14, 2012


I love technology. I love books.

I still read books the old fashioned way. I turn pages. I'm not ready to read them on a screen.

Paul Harvey, Erma Bombeck. Art Bucwald, and many others wrote their books, columns on a typewriter not a computer. I picture them typing at a speed that would have made my typing (not keyboarding) teacher jealous. I'm trying to picture Ann Landers write her daily column from an iPhone or iPad. And I can't. Somehow knowing that many of my favorite books started with a blank sheet of paper instead of a blank screen makes them some of the best books written. Not to mention all the classics...written before typewriters and had to be typeset a letter at a time. Moby Dick, Dickens, those by Twain, and countless others....

I'm glad we have technology. I enjoy it. But as I am reading Paul Harvey today I appreciate the typewriter and the mind and heart of the author.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Charles Stanley Quote

"What you may not realize is that prayer is all about love."

Scripture ref 1 John 4:8


I have decided Dust Bunnies do exist. They are distant cousins to the Easter Bunny.

Instead of baskets and chocolate candy they leave lint, dust, dropped pills, buttons, pennies behind heavy bedroom furniture and dust on baseboards.

I plan to stay awake one night and see if they show up and I will have my Dirt Devil handy. Better yet I will have mom standing by with her dust mop and duster. Lord help them when she's ready to tackle dust.

(I had lofty plans to dust baseboards and wash windows today...the baseboards and cleaning the rooms are a bigger job than planned...I have to stop and do things for mom also.)

And I'm getting depressed about grocery shopping ugh ugh ugh!

Late night insomnia television.....

Weird animal shows

True crime (I'm addicted to but have already seen what's on)

Shopping channels - as I've said before someone has decided they need luggage, jewelry or a set of battery operated Christmas lights. I guess they can't wait. most cases it will depress you or make you mad. Hmmph!

Something comforting.....and prayer

I've written it before there is something comforting about having everyone home and where they should be. Oh I know one day the kids will move and start lives of their own, but right now I'm enjoying having them here.

Please pray as Tori tries to decide if the Guard is for her.

Pray we have a good weekend with mom.

I'm worrying...and I know I shouldn't about a few things. I need for things to flow and fall into place and stay there for just a bit. Without the other shoe dropping before the other one hits the floor.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Fall Decorations...

Joining Kate's blog party this week.  I like decorating for any holiday - fall is fun.  I do miss decorating our dining room - (Sam's room now) and we will have to scale back Christmas decorating just a tad - because of less room - but decorating is still a lot of fun.  All of my decorations were yardsale, Dollar Tree, Goodwill finds..... I love it. 

Entry way

Angel above coffee pot

Kitchen Table

Kitchen Shelf

Book Case

Thursday, October 11, 2012


Explain to me why I have as many dishes and as much to clean up when we have sandwiches or snack it night as when I cook a big meal?

It's a mystery because I can't explain it.


Extension 114

Today I returned a call to give status of an order....

A real nice, sweet lady answered the phone. I asked for Myra at extension 114. She said "mam are you sure about the extension there is no answer
... Oh wait a minute I'm Myra at 114!"

We laughed and laughed. I can so understand because she probably receives as many calls as I do!

Too funny!!!!!

Ha ha ha

What is your name?

Mom and I were in kitchen. I was making egg salad. She asked "what is your name?" I said "Becky." She then said ... "Well my goodness I should know that (I got excited for a second)....I have a daughter named Becky."

I could cry or laugh.

I choose laughter.


I am in serious need of dental work.

Before mom broke my teeth - I needed it - but I really need it now.  I am becoming paranoid. 

Say a prayer that we will be able to find a way real soon to accomplish this.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Why am I in the hospital?

Right now mom thinks she is in the hospital. She has been banging, knocking on doors. Thank goodness for the extra locks we've put on.

She is finally calm...after I had to fuss. But you can tell she is not comfortable.

Couldn't figure out why she thought she was in hospital until I looked over on her TV...some show on....and you guessed it.....folks were in a hospital.

Please pray for a peaceful, restful night.


I'm working on sprucing up mom's clothes. Not her style just get her some new stuff.

And for every new blouse I buy.... I put up one of her tops.

I'm curious to see if she notices. Bet she does.


Remember when your kids were smaller and after you've been gone for a few hours or all day because of work and when you walk in they had a 1000 things to say, ask, want and do right then?

Well.....mine is 82. Whew! She likes it if you bring her a prize or treat. Mom literally hasn't left my sight since I walked in about an hour and a half ago.

Focus on the Family...

Find them online or on the radio. I cannot even begin to tell you how much I've learned and how much I've been blessed by Focus.

You will learn something every day ... Every week---- even if you think it is not relevant in your life. Listen in, you will be blessed. Trust me on this one.


Alpha and Omega
King of Kings
Light of the World
Morning Star
Prince of Peace

And these are just a few.... yet we treat
His name, His Word, His Father so lightly, yet He continues to love us and treats us with grace and mercy.

God is good. God is God!

Another from Oswald Chambers....

I'm being challenged by his book. One I've picked up dozens of times and then put down. A gift from Mrs. Mary Childress-an awesome woman of God who poured her life into me in one of the hardest times of my life.

"God will never reveal more truth about Himself until you have obeyed what you know already. Beware of becoming 'wise and prudent'"

Scripture ref Matthew 11:25

"Do you have to be right?"

Last night Sam had a game.  They won 25-6.  Whoo Hoo.  Go BMS Cardinals.

Last week - Sam missed a practice because he went on a church trip - and I told him to be prepared that he probably wouldn't play in the game. 

I had fully intended on going to the game - I was ready.  Mom was having a bad night, Steve had to work over - so I thought I would get there by half time - but didn't.  I was picking him up - he came up the hill looking so mad. 

He got into the car and I apologized for not making in time to the game...he said "didn't matter, I didn't play, not right mom."  I just looked at him and said.."remember we talked about it, and you missed practice and we knew you wouldn't wouldn't be fair to the others who did not miss." 

He looked at me...and asked..."Do you have to be right?" 

He knew.  His attitude improved right away .  I am thinking the Butterfinger I had for him helped too!

I love my boy! 

Tuesday, October 09, 2012

Oswald Chambers Quote

I cannot save and sanctify myself; I cannot atone for sin; I cannot redeem the world; I cannot make right what is wrong, pure what is impure, holy what is unholy. That is all the sovereign work of God.

Scripture ref Romans 6:13-22


Attitude and Organization

Boy I need to work on both!

In there somewhere.....

Tori is under the blanket somwhere.  She had worked the night before until after midnight and had to go back in at 8:00 in the morning.....

When I arrived home yesterday afternoon this is what greeted me....... she is in there somewhere....

It would be......

So easy to stay in bed! I'm still sleepy and it is chilly outside and in. This bed and my covers feel too good.

Monday, October 08, 2012


We have a lovely lady who works in our factory. You would love her. Her work ethic is untouchable and she has a servants heart. And wears her heart on her sleeve.

She is always smiling and giving hugs.

She is inspiring!

Aren't you glad???

There is an older man who works in our factory. His attitude is amazing.

He is very wise... I went to get some parts and this is what he said... "Aren't you glad that today is today? And that God gave us this moment?" Wow


It is okay to visit a person with Alzheimer's - true he or she may not remember you....but they enjoy the company and the attention.

And it helps the caregiver! Trust me!

Sometimes I'm asked what are things that could be given to mom.....she likes little happys. All Alzheimer patients do!

She loves Chapstick and lipstick and it can be the dollar store kind... That's what I buy.

A little stuffed animal.


Magazines that you are finished reading.

Sweets. She loves them!

I'm not saying this to make anyone feel guilty. Because I know lives are hectic and everyone is busy. Mom wanted to call members of family. So we did. She said well "I know your voice...but it would be nice to see your face." Please visit those who are sick you don't even need to bring anything . Just your time.

Morning Staples

Every night I lay mom's cereal out and get her coffee pot ready.  That way when she get's up she can "cook" her breakfast.  She never misses her Rice Krispies - now she may eat some eggs later - but the cereal is a must.  Coffee and cereal makes for a happy morning.... (That is her blueberry bread on the right we buy at Naifeh's she loves it)


One of the most important things we do is giving mom her medicine...through much trial and error  we are on a schedule that works.  She is on less medicine today than she was two years ago.  Her history of heart disease and high blood pressure adds to the importance of it all. 

But once a week - I get this ready for the week ahead....

Trick-Or-Treat Mom

Mom and I went grocery shopping Saturday - spent way too much money - but that is for another day - I have to do better shopping wise!  Geesh - I was so depressed.

But anyhoo......

Mom was fasciated by the Halloween asile and the animated charcter that was at the end....

Notice, how she has it by the hand.

Ha ha.

Peek-a-boo Barney

Our younger dog - does not know what to think with the windows open.....

(side note:  I plan to window wash this next week - I didn't realize how dusty and dirty they were until I opened them up -we have been afraid to open them up because mom is such an escape artist...but she has managed to leave them alone and I am so enjoying the fresh air in the house.  And it really helps in Sam's room - because well...boy's stink.)


I managed to reproduce mom's salmon patties.  Whoo hoo!  They were good too!  First I picked her brain to see if she could remember -and she did most of it - then I compared to this recipe.


•1 can (16 ounces) salmon

•1 small onion, finely grated

•ground black pepper, to taste

•2 large eggs, well beaten

•1 to 1 1/2 cups fine dry bread crumbs

•3 tablespoons butter


Turn salmon and liquid into a medium mixing bowl. Flake with a fork, removing OR mashing any bones (they are edible). Mix in grated onion, and pepper. Mix beaten eggs with salmon. Add enough bread crumbs, about 1/2 to 3/4 cup, to make thick enough to shape into 12 small patties. Roll patties in 1/2 cup bread crumbs. In a large heavy skillet over low heat, melt 2 tablespoons of butter; add patties. Fry patties slowly on one side; add remaining butter, turn patties and fry until brown on the other side.

And now  here they are cooking in one of her iron skillets......

Sunday, October 07, 2012

To Joshua

I just want you to know that your mom is amazing and your sister is so sweet. The world is better just because they are here. I know you would be so proud of them both. And your grandfather is a hoot.

Happy Birthday.

To Joshua's momma... I'm thinking of you and I love you. You are a wonderful person! And I know Joshua is proud.

Greenhorn Award

On his camping trip Sam won the greenhorn award. Which means he won knife throwing, hatchet toss and fire starting.

Go Sam!

Long Johns

Now why didn't I think of that?

Sam returned from camping trip. He had long johns. I asked him did he pick up somebody's stuff...he said "no, Ryan's mom bought those for me so I wouldn't get cold."

Sign me up for mother of the year.


Routine is very important with mom. Just as much as flexibility on my part.

Melecia is awesome she has a routine for mom Monday-Friday. Mom finds comfort in that. Selfish me wasn't thinking about routine on the weekends until Friday...when I was trying to decide on how to have happier days.

So yesterday I kept to the same routine as Melecia and mom did so good. Her routine breakfast, medicine, dust mopping, dusting, snack, more dusting, hot lunch, Medicine, wash up or bath, nap....and so on.

I have also decided to give her late afternoon medicine a little earlier and that seems to be helping considerably with sundowning.

Right now her coffee is ready along with her cereal bowl and Rice Krispies. Her dust mop is in the corner waiting on her.

Friday, October 05, 2012


Not a total disappointment....Tori goes back for enlistment in November.


Tori could not enlist today.

Physical standards. She is determined so I know she will do it.

I'm still proud.



Sam left last night for a camping trip. Frontier style. Everything old style.

As he was walking with all his gear..he looked so big. Was it just a few years ago that he carried a Hot Wheel back pack to school? Now he plays football and is so big.

He will be a good man.


Today is the day. If all goes as planned in just a few short hours Tori will be a member of the US Military.

I'm proud, sad, nervous, scared, happy for her since this is what she wants to do, name it.

She had to stay overnight in Memphis at a hotel...she was the only female recruit.

She told me yesterday she had to get up at four... I woke up on the dot at four,no alarm- mother's instinct I guess.

Please pray. If this is meant to be God will open the door for her. Pray for peace and strength of mind and heart for Tori and her momma. For discernment of those interviewing her and giving the physical.

Thanks for praying!

Thursday, October 04, 2012


Obviously sleep is evasive for me tonight.

I'm hurting in my back and hips.

So I'm blogging - now I plan to watch TV. But this came to mind...we have a lot of crime in this nation judging by all the True Crime shows! Come on folks let's pray for our beautiful Country!
Let's not hand it over to Satan.


Mom and I went to the grocery store tonight. She had so much fun and so did I! Which sometimes is not the case because she hasn't been doing that great in public lately - but today was a gift.

She loves to push the cart and look for things. I give her one thing to find on each aisle and she finds it. Shopping takes patience. She wants to make sure we buy her chips-a-hoy and wavy lays. And always worries about laundry detergent. She doesn't want me messing with coupons either. She loses patience with me in that regard -- always has though.

She knows after grocery shopping means a happy meal. She was ready!

We get home and she wanted to put everything up herself. And I let her have at it. I took care of dogs and mail. She did good! She was so proud. After she went to bed I checked to make sure frozen foods were in right spot etc., and everything was right. God is so good and I am thankful for this gift of an awesome day.


Goodness knows how mom remembered the below late yesterday after a day of not remembering the names to everyday objects.

"Becky did you know my momma died of a heart attack almost 50 years ago? And that Charles died 10 years ago?"

Who can explain Alzheimer's? I can't. Dad's case was so different from moms.


Obviously Sam disagrees with a friends' opinion about Tori.

Yesterday when I picked Sam up from football he said "you see that dude over there? He thinks Tori is hot. Isn't that the most disgusting thing you've ever heard?" Ha ha ha

I'm guessing Sam doesn't put hot and his sister in the same sentence.

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

Another plea...

Please be nice to those in customer service. Whether it be those behind the cash register, the waitress, the one on the phone.

Be nice. Be patient. And thank them!

Monday, October 01, 2012


Mom has always kept to the same style.  Way before Alzheimer's set in. 

To give you an idea...look at the below pic.   Took this Saturday after doing laundry.

Now picture these in blue and green. 

Too funny!

Ha ha ha.


In an effort to save $70, I decided to give mom a perm on Saturday. I bought a kit this time at Sally’s beauty supply – made especially for gray hair.

Now, I must admit I wasn’t too excited about doing it. But it was to save money and plus she doesn’t behave all that great when she has to sit for a long time in public. So the benefits outweighed my lack of excitement.

So we start.

Step 1: Wash hair with clarifying shampoo.

“Good Lord Becky, water is too cold, oh, now it is too hot. The shampoo is running in my eyes, get me some cotton for my ears. I need a fresh towel”

Step 2: Roll Hair

“Becky, you are pulling my hair, make sure it is tight. Don’t miss any pieces. Do you have to spray my hair again? I need a fresh towel.”

Step 3: Put the Curling stuff on

“Oh, it is too hot, it is burning my hair off. Are you sure my hair is not on fire. I need a fresh towel.”

Step 4: Rinse Curling stuff

Good Lord Becky, water is too cold, oh, now it is too hot, get me some cotton for my ears. I need a fresh towel”

Step5: Neutralizer

“Good Lord Becky, it’s cold. Don’t get in my ears. I need a fresh towel.”

Step 6: Rinse Neutralizer and Shampoo Hair followed by conditioner.

“Good Lord Becky, water is too cold, oh, now it is too hot. The shampoo is running in my eyes, get me some cotton for my ears. I need a fresh towel”

In between steps, she ate cookies, diet coke, chicken salad and changed socks for some reason.

But here is the end result….not too bad. Next time I go to hairdresser I am giving her an extra tip. And yes we used that many towels.  ha ha ha