Thursday, February 28, 2013

Trans what???

In a Mississippi school there is a battle between the school and their policy and a family of a little girl....who was born a boy. Physically is a boy but parents say he is a girl. Uh????? He is six.

The fight? The young one is supposed to use the boys restroom...but he...????wants to use the girls restroom. Uh???

Being the mother of a boy and a girl....I would not want a boy coming into the girls restroom. And vice versa. Too many questions would arise on differences-questions that six year olds are too young to face.. This little boy is already confused - now he is all over the news. I don't know all details, I'm sure there is much more involved.

I don't understand it. God has a plan for this little one when he was born, it just seems to me that a transgender battle over restrooms and wardrobe is not it. But I could be wrong.

Back at work.....

My first day back after surgery was a long one. I felt sluggish - I feel that way now. I am still swollen - the need for loose, comfy clothing is still here.

But it felt good to be back in routine. I'm so glad I answered emails from home the day before. Whew!

Grateful for my coworkers and my team. I so appreciate everyone how they covered for me and the work they did.

Wednesday Night....

Mom went to bed at her usual time...whew!

Then....she got up. Got fully dressed, made her bed and was ready to go.

So, I had to be VERY firm. Gave her a snack and milk. Then took her by the hand, helped with pj's, and told her not to get up all except if she had to go to bathroom. I even left her a glass of water in her room. She said I was funny, asked who made me boss..but she stayed in bed.

She slept.

Whoo hoo!

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Back to the whole not sleeping thing....

I'm trying to decide who was more upset last night.....

Me for being kept up


Mom for being told to go to bed.

It is a toss up.

Back to work....

Back to work today for me. Taking my heating pad with me. Ha!

All night long.....

Nope, not the song. Mom was up all night long.

There is no telling what she has rearranged in her room.

All night. Ugh!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Totally confused mom...

Need much prayer. Mom had a rough afternoon and it is carrying over tonight

I just gave her some medicine and a snack. Praying it kicks in and it looks like it is. I hope! I am worn out.

I think her routine has been thrown off with both Melecia and I here. Though I have tried to stay out of the way. Melecia needs no help from me.

Other news.......

I answered 231 emails . Whew. I hope I don't receive 231 thank you replies. Ha ha. But it helps because I am going in tomorrow with a lot taken care of. And my mind refreshed with what is going on. Thankful I was able to do this!

I slept late this morning but purposely did not take naps so I can get in routine. I'm sitting in recliner with pillows and a heating pad though.

My sister returned to me every bowl she had of mine. Too funny. Plus she gave me a cute purse.

Monday, February 25, 2013


If you serve in children's ministry you are important. Never take for granted your influence.

A few weeks ago this young girl came up to me... Asked me if I was Ms. Becky...told her yes.

She said you probably don't remember me , I only came twice, but you held me in your lap while you taught because I was sad. My parents were divorcing. I just remember holding me.

We never know what a child is going through...they act out when they hurt. Love on them. Love as God loves us.

Small town boy.....

While Sam and I were out today...he said "I like small towns, I like our town."

Of course, his views may change as he gets older. But there is something very comforting about knowing all the businesses, where church bells ring and at one point I taught the new deputy in Sunday School.

I can't eat all that....

Mom says it before every meal. Right before she cleans her plate.

Ha ha ha

Time together......

Though I felt tough today I felt nudged to spend a little time with Sam.

I checked him out early ... About an hour and a half early. Melecia was with mom. I took him for a haircut and a hamburger. Spent about an hour or so together. It was a good idea.

We came home, he gave both dogs a bath and vacuumed.

Then he fussed about no meat....but did give me a bear hug and went to a friends.

Mom instinct is a good thing.


Yep, I tried to watch them.

Boring.  I turned it off.

And then again - I guess I know nothing about fashion - because the dresses I thought were lovely and tasteful - didn't make a lot of the best dressed lists.  Though I must admit, some did. 

Hollywood - shame on us for allowing them to influence us instead of the other way around.

Mom and Meleica....

I just love listening to them.  I felt so bad this morning - I was in bed when Melecia was drinking coffee and eating cereal. 

In less than one hour - Melecia had mom in the tub and they were laughing and carrying on.  When I give her a bath - I am worn out and stressed to the hilt.

Melecia said she figures it is because mom and I are family and I have memories associated with mom.  Mom wasn't happy when she was well - downright mean at times.  It is hard to push that to the side when she says or does something hurtful. When memories spring up so fast - you can't help but stop and remember - no matter  how hard you try to push them back down.  My sister Judy and I talked about it too - and she said I do much better than her - we never knew an affectionate, loving, hugging, bragging mom - so it throws us for a loop when she is that way now.

I guess we need to get over it - but it goes to show you how the memories of childhood affect your life.

And I know I have said it many times - but Melecia is just good.  How she handles everything in that practical, no nonsense way of hers - but laughs so hard when she gets tickled.  We are so blessed to have her in our lives - blessed to have someone we trust in our home and with mom. She is part of the family!

Where's the meat?????!!!!!

I decided we would have salad and baked potato for dinner tonight.  Easy.  Healthy.

Sam said...."What is this?  Where is the  meat?  I am growing here...." 

If he grows anymore.....Hmmph!


That is how I feel.  Ugh.

I had low grade fever this morning - and I was hurting....ummmm...everywhere.  I called the doctor and the nurse said, it was normal as long as fever wasn't high.  She told me to walk more, drink more fluids and eat some fiber.  Boy I am hoping I see relief.

To be safe, I have decided to take tomorrow off too.  I orignally planned on going back - but I just don't want to overdo it.  I do plan on working on emails and other things from home tomorrow - so hopefully I won't be totally overwhelmed when I walk in the door Wednesday.

Thank you for your continued prayers!  I appreciate them.

Sunday, February 24, 2013


Steve, mom and I went to the grocery store. I think we were out less than two hours.

I'm wore out and sore. Ugh. My tummy still real swollen. I just took some medicine and am in the recliner.

Mom has been up since 6:00...and she has gone strong all day. It looks like she is slowing down a tad.

Thanks for praying.

Saturday, February 23, 2013


I am up and down with how I feel. 

I am feeling pretty tough right now.  Mom has been okay.  We have decided she doesn't do that great with visitors - no matter who it is - for some reason - no matter who it is - throws her for a loop.  We have to lock everyone in when they are here.  Ha ha.  Judy has come over a few times to help out - and it really has confused mom - she was wanting to go "home" and such.  It takes us a long time to get her settled. 

When Steve's sons visited last time - it threw her off too.  Just don't know what it is.  Maybe we have our routine, etc.  I hate that, because at times I feel so isolated and lonely.  Please pray we can find ways around this. 

Judy came today and took mom to her two favorite places - Burger King and Dollar General - mom bought Kleenex and Snicker Bars - ha ha - and has hid them all.  Too funny.

It hurts for me to to cough and my stomach is super swollen. Ugh. And I am very very tired. 

Tori is at work - and Sam is at his home away from home - his friend Ryan's house.

I think now that mom is laying down ---I will do the same.

Thank you for your continued prayers.

Love is...

Hubby painting your toenails because it hurts to bend over.

Friday, February 22, 2013

Sam's Logic

Sam asked me what was wrong.

Told him I was hurting from surgery.

He replied..."mom, you were once a single mom raising two kids on no money, you worked two jobs, and now you are taking care of mema. And you are gonna wuss out on me over surgery to take an organ out? Snap out of it!"

He can still walk and has his teeth. Ha ha ha.

I so love my Sam!

Love is.....

Your husband bringing home a strawberry milkshake.

Just seems to help.

Not feeling so good right now. I'm working through the pain....I hurt worse than yesterday.

Mom settled early. Thank goodness!!! She told me she would let me know if she got tired of sleeping. Ha ha!


I am laying in bed listening to mom and Melecia. 

Mom can be frustrating...downright mean at time.  Melecia just handles it in stride.  I love to listen to how she handles things. She genuinely cares about mom and will ask mom questions about growing up and advice on how to do things.  Granted the answers don't make much sense, I appreciate how she engages mom.  She is awesome at redirecting mom and getting her to do things that need to be done. She is just good and I am sure grossly underpaid - if only I could help there!  She balances the professional with the personal wonderfully.  Because she is in a business that requires for one to be personal. 

Janis, you are right - I need this forced rest.  It is hard for me to rest my mind - to turn it off. And my body and mind are demanding that I rest, so I am listening. 

Back to nap time...I am hoping my copy of Killing Lincoln arrives today.

From Becky.....updates.....prayer needed

Thank you so much Diane for posting. And for the scripture. You are an awesome lady of God. Please post anytime!!! Share that wisdom,

Carla, thank you for the soup. It was so good. It totally hit the spot, plus it was good to see you. That was a bright spot in my day Wednesday.

Julie and Penni, thank you for my care package.

Connie, thank you for visiting. It was so good to see you and talk. I miss those talks.

Janis, thank you for praying. Thank your church for praying and very humbled to know that people I don't know are praying. God is so good.

Thank you to everyone who has been praying. What a blessing!

My teams at work and coworkers. Thank you for working harder and for doing my work on top of your already busy day, I am blessed to work with you all. 

Thank you Melecia for simply being you. Thank you to Wesley Home Care Services for taking care of us Tues and Wednesday.

Mom is not doing so hot. She is so agitated and nervous. It is 12:30, she is wide awake refusing to go to bed. Prayerfully when she runs into the locked doors she will settle. Plus she is real mean. Pray she settles.

I had a nurse who had the same..complete...birthday as me. 8/13/1969. She calmed my nerves considerably. The anthesis assistant was saved in 1991. He is a student at Union University. I just chatted and asked questions. St. Francis Bartlett...a good hospital.

I am hurting terribly. My stomach hurts and my back is killing me. I am miserable if I need to be totally honest.

Pray for my brother-in-law, Charlie. He received some not so hot news in regard to some heart tests. Pray for Judy too.

Mom still fiddling in her room. I just don't feel like dealing with it. Judy came tonight, to help, but we all decided that threw mom off. We shall see.

Going to try to rest.

Love to all,

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Jehova Rapha - Part 2

Becky is out of surgery and "It Went WELL" (to quote Steve).

Now let us begin to pray for healing. Pray that Becky heals perfectly! I was almost going to quickly - but perfect healing is best - even if it takes a little longer. Pray for Steve as he cares for Becky. Pray that Becky's mom understands enough that Becky's discomfort does not agitate her. Pray for her sister as she comes to help with her mom. Pray for financial security. Just pray, pray, pray.

I will leave you with some scripture:

Jeremiah 30:17 For I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds,” says the Lord.

Psalm 30:2 “O Lord my God, I cried out to You, and You have healed me.”
Psalms 103:3 Who forgives all your iniquities; who heals all your diseases;

Exodus 23:25 And you shall serve the LORD your God, and he shall bless your bread, and your water; and I will take sickness away from the middle of you.

As we pray for Becky, I know that Becky would want this. Please let us know if you need pray for healing or any other situation. I thank you for your prayers for Becky and her family!

In Christ,


Jehovah Rapha

Becky has been taken back to surgery. I do not know how long the surgery will take or when I will get an update. Please call on Jehovah Rapha for her whenever you read this post and whenever you think about her over the next couple of days. I will update everyone as soon as I know anything.
Exodus 15:22 So Moses brought Israel from the Red sea, and they went out into the wilderness of Shur; and they went three days in the wilderness, and found no water. 23 And when they came to Marah, they could not drink of the waters of Marah, for they were bitter: therefore the name of it was called Marah. 24 And the people murmured against Moses, saying, What shall we drink? 25 And he cried unto the LORD; and the LORD shewed him a tree, which when he had cast into the waters, the waters were made sweet: there he made for them a statute and an ordinance, and there he proved them, 26 And said, If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the LORD thy God, and wilt do that which is right in his sight, and wilt give ear to his commandments, and keep all his statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the LORD that healeth thee. 27 And they came to Elim, where were twelve wells of water, and threescore and ten palm trees: and they encamped there by the waters.
In Christ,

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

A lot.....

Mom had a better day today. Melecia will be here tomorrow. Whew! She is feeling better. Pray for her continued recovery.

I don't feel good at all. I'm hurting terribly.

My feelings are on my sleeve...words have hurt me and I am very sad. Pray I can forgive and forget. I'm proud of my reaction. I wanted to respond but didn't and that was for the best. Oh well!

We are under a winter weather advisory. Bless Tori's heart she's had car problems but seems to have it under control.

Thank you for your prayers.

Very Tired

Mom had a rough day and night yesterday.  Her routine is off.  Melecia is sick, so we have a sub, a sweet lady - but it is change. And my mother even before Alzheimer's has never ever done change. 

Melecia is out today - but should be back tomorrow.  We do miss her.  Mom would not eat for our sweet substitute.  She was miserable when I arrived home from work. 

Back to tired.....when I got home - mom literally drained me.  I wish I could describe it..there was no calming her or reassuring her.  Finally I was able to lead her into her room - get her ready for bed - and she went to sleep.  I think exhaustion won that battle for me.  She is still sleeping right now. My sister is joining her for lunch today so she will eat.  I made homemade beef stew and cornbread.  I do love my crockpot.

Tomorrow is surgery.  I have to be there at 5:30.  Ugh

I now have a laptop for work.  This will allow me to make up lost time, and stay caught up.  God is good!

I am humbled by the post and prayer below.  I am blessed with good friends.

Just Checking It Out

Good morning all Just a Thought Friends!!!

What a beautiful day the Lord has made! This is Diane - checking to make sure I can do this thing tomorrow!

Please begin praying for Becky today. Pray that Mom has a good day and sleeps good. This will make sure Becky has a good day - with as minimal stress as possible. Pray that Becky has a worry free night knowing that her Lord and Savior is in charge of her surgery and not the surgeon. Pray for the surgeon and surgical team. Pray that if they do not know Jesus that they see that Jesus that lives in Becky. Pray for financial needs to be met as this surgery is much needed but brings extra costs along with it. Pray for Steve as any time your helpmate is having surgery causes concern. Pray for Tori, Sam, and Mom. Pray for the many things that I did not ask for.

Becky - know that many that love you are already praying.

Thanks for being a friend!

In Christ,


Monday, February 18, 2013

Check this verse out....

Psalm 25:20-21
(New American Standard)

20 Guard my soul and deliver me;
Do not let me be ashamed, for I take refuge in You.
21 Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, For I wait for You.

From Charles Stanley
Learning to wait on God demands at least three things of us. First, we must be sensitive to Him. That is, we must nurture our relationship with the Father so we can hear Him when He says “Wait.” Second, we must trust His judgment. Does God know more than we do? Yes. Then we should trust Him. Third, we must be obedient to Him. If we try to make something happen on our own after God tells us to wait, then we’re heading for disaster. The Lord blesses obedience—even obedient waiting.

Sunday, February 17, 2013


I just watched Killing Lincoln on the National Geographic Channel. Based on the book by Bill O'Reilly. Awesome. Awesome. Awesome (I just ordered a used copy)

Watch it!!!

Last week every day was a good broadcast on Focus on the Family. Thursday and Friday brought the familiar, wise, comforting voice of the late Zig Ziglar.

If you are a parent please please listen to the Tuesday and Wednesday broadcasts with Ted Cunningham. You will learn much.

Monday was Dr. Kevin Lehman, great as always!

Watch Lincoln and listen to Focus!

Specific prayer request....

Please be in prayer.

I know it is not major major surgery.  But I am worried how mom will handle me not being well, me for a few days.  Does that make sense?

I really am worried about it.  Thankfully we have Melecia here Thursday and Friday.  Judy will come over at night- but you have to know how much mom clings to me, follows me, etc.  She is my shadow.  She is much like a little one - pray she does well.

And I am sure I will have my panic attack about the surgery probabaly Wednesday night or Thursday.  But I know I will feel better soon!  I am so looking forward to being pain free.

I want to know.....

I want to know who decides to raise the gas prices 14 cents in one week? 

Do folks gather around a table and take a poll on the amount?  Is it a conference call?  Regulators?  The oil companies?  The government?


A tad cleaner and more organized.....

I did manage to get some cleaning done and I did organize our closet.

I am taking to Goodwill a bunch of stuff from our closet and Sam's drawers.  I am hoping to prod Tori to do the same.

I have a few things I need to do before Thursday - pick up milk on Tuesday.  Mom has all her meals and lunch stuff for the week.  I may need to pick up some Rice Krispies to be sure.

Steve has this ugly (and he agrees it is ugly) VHS (yes VHS) cabinet full of movies I can honestly say he has not watched in the five years we have been married.  But he is clinging to that old thing.  I have it now hidden in our closet. Thank goodness!!!  He is not a pack rat - but he is holding onto these things.  Oh, well!

He did hang two sets of door blinds up.  He picked them up this week.  Mom had completely tore the other ones up - and they have been on the bottom of the list.  But it looks so much better.  I am so proud of them. 

So despite the bumps with mom, the day has ended up productive.  I am glad.  I woke up feeling pretty tough - and it leveled off about 1:00.

I do enjoy a clean house- but I surely don't stress like I used to,  I think it happened when mom started taking up about 85% of my day - surely folks understand, if my yard and house do not fit into the Better Homes and Gardens theme?  Surely I can get over obsessing about it. Dust will always be here - but time will not.


Blasted learn?

Never ever again will I add to or take away from mom's closet.  Ever since I pulled some stuff that was never worn out and semi-organized it, mom has been going nuts.

And I am not joking.

arrrrggghhhhhh......I am so aggravated with myself!

I know better!!!  I am not a rookie caregive!  Hmmph!


As the old saying goes mom "has worried me to death" today.

She is now turning into mean mom. I have no more patience left. And that is a major understatement. I have been trying to clean and pick up to no avail.

On the funny side I'm finding things she stashes. No rhyme or reason as to why some things are in the spots they are in.
Extension cords in shoes. I only found those because I was straightening out her closet. Kleenex everywhere! Crackers wrapped in napkins in every drawer,

She has probably walked 200 miles in this house today. I do think she is agitated because I have been cleaning and getting rid of stuff. Mainly from our room. I did try to get some clothes and shoes from her closet and I think that turned on mean mom, I though she was catnapping when I did it, but she came up behind me. Ha ha.
I managed to get a few things out. Whew!

Saturday, February 16, 2013


We had planned to get up and moving this morning. My to do list was long.

But I had been sick most of night...and couldn't move this morning. I was very lazy. Everyone poured their own cereal and I laid around.

After I felt better, mom and I went to Naifeh's grocery store and picked up some things. And I dropped off a couple bills..

When I returned, Steve and I got out of the house. Mall walked and then went to see the new Die Hard movie. It is good. And I'm gonna say it Bruce Willis has aged very well. I've always liked him and the Die Hard movies. They really are true action movies. Sam watched mom while we were out. And I soooooo cheated. bought cokes and popcorn at Target across from the movie theatre. Spent $5 instead of $15 on concessions. We used the rest of a gift card we received at Christmas. I had such a good time. We want to see Identity Theft. My friend Julie said it is funny.
We needed....I needed the tone away. It was nice. I miss those times we got out.

Sam has gone to his friends house, they are doing something early at church tomorrow.

Mom had a good day.

Friday, February 15, 2013


On the day of my surgery my friend Diane will post an update for me.

Wish you could meet her. To know her is to love her.


Trying something new. On my lunch break I shopped at Sav-a-Lot.

Canned goods are half price than other stores. I think I'm stocked for a couple weeks on canned goods.

Found a few other things with good prices. The cost of groceries is unreal. And I don't see it improving soon. Surely relief is near?


At the last minute Sam wanted to go to school dance. He asked me to pick up a flower. Awwww

I dropped him off..with strict instructions not to come in.

Ha ha.


I had a call today and I joke not.

They had their cabinet upside down and they called in a panic.

They wanted to know what to can they get their cabinet right?


I told them to turn it up right.

The light bulb came on!

Dollar General

Well heck they reset my Dollar General.

Where the detergent used to be is where you find paper towels.

Where the Oreo cookies used to be now sits shampoo.

I couldn't find the pencils. I asked where they were and clerk said on stationary aisle. What? Call it what it supplies! And that's on the aisle where I would find cokes and such. Oh and where the lotion used to now a shelf for T-shirts. And where a cash register was now sits clothes for kids.

Now, I'm not saying it is bad as the Kroger reset. I'm still not over that.

The aisles are wide. Same great people. In light of the recent robberies of Dollar Generals near us, the reset protects the clerks better.

Mom will like it. She'll think it's a new store. I love Dollar General, Ill be strong.

But it is change. And I'm a creature of habit.


I talk to a lot of people who need help assembling something they purchased.

Well over half the time, they tossed the instructions. Thinking they do not need.

How often do we do this with God's word? For this girl, way too often! Shame on me.

I need to be more dependent on God and less so on myself. I need to pick up the instructions and read them.

Back to the vacuum..,

Absolutely disgusting how much junk I vacuumed up.


Thankful for Bissell!


Happy ❤ Day....belated!

I gave mom two tubes of lipstick. She was so excited. She had to empty her purse twice to arrange.

I remember my dad giving mom a huge box of candy every year...the kind with a big 'ole bow. (She would hide in her closet...but I found) and he would give her a card he signed "Charles E. Horn"- he did this on all cards to everyone-like we didn't know who he was. Ha!

I am........

My mother's daughter......

Allow me to explain.

A few months ago I bought a small vacuum cleaner.... one probably suited for small apartments or dorm rooms. With two dogs, two kids, traffic in and out, hubby's work just wasn't doing the job.

Soooooo to celebrate my raise I bought myself a new full size vacuum cleaner. Whoo hoo! I am so excited,

As I was putting it said ....and I joke not..."well, that's a pretty vacuum cleaner."

I know!

I am my mother's daughter!

(One day I want one of those "robot" vacuums that does hard floors)

Whoo hoo! I am thankful for Bissell.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013


I am waiting for my preop testing.  A lot of folks in front of me.

Surgery one week from tomorrow.


So tired, yet wide awake. Long day at work.

Mom was tired tonight. She fell asleep while we were talking. It was sweet.

I brought home paperwork and managed to get it organized with notations. I must soon begin working on standard operating procedure manual. This will be the first for our company - I have saved emails and such, plus a long list that I will work from.

I am struggling and hurting in an area oft life. Please pray.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Mom and McDonalds...

I had some errands to run after work...I was going to cook tacos (I can't eat them right now .....but they are a family favorite)

But to get mom in the car, I had to promise her McDonald's. She was in the car in just a few seconds.

Then it made her day, when a little kitty toy was in the bag.

This disease can be sad, frustrating but can make you smile. I am grateful for these moments of joy. Even when they are a little toy wrapped in plastic.

A not so good day...

Is how Sam described his day.

He said he didn't feel good and people were grouchy at school. Said he needs a hobby.

Didn't eat dinner, didn't want to talk, he went to bed. He probably needed sleep more than anything. This momma bear sure wanted to fix it.

Sunday, February 10, 2013


What do you get when you combine one caregiver who is not a 100% but more like 80%, an 82 year old Alzheimer patient, a very crowded Kroger Store, and no shopping list?

A very nervous, tightly wound Becky!


Saturday, February 09, 2013


Need much prayer. I have felt bad and have been sick all day. I've had fever! Poor mom, I haven't felt like doing the first thing. None of our usual shopping or errands. And bless her heart she "suffered" through sandwiches today. Ha ha.

I had really intended to clean house and do some paperwork...but it didn't happen. I did wash a couple of loads of clothes and did some dishes. So I wasn't totally lazy! Oh, and I did clean the bathrooms. That counts right?

Steve's sons are coming for dinner tomorrow. I'm glad . I hope for this to be a monthly thing. Something for all of us to look forward to. We need traditions and steady time together.

I'm in bed and hope to rest. Have a good night everyone.

Friday, February 08, 2013

Treating everybody the same....

Last week a young girl talked to me when I took mom to get her perm.

She asked "Are you Sam's mom?"


She then said "he's cool...nice...he treats everyone the same...he doesn't do all the drama or dumb stuff."

I guess that is a good thing,

New Position....

It is keeping me busy. That's for sure.

I brought work home. I have much to do and much to learn.

But I needed the challenge. I enjoy the challenge.

Only Rice Krispies Please....

Thursday morning I decided to be Becky Crocker. Whatever!

I cooked ham, eggs and biscuits. I gave mom her plate and she never missed a beat...she said "I only eat Rice Krispies in the morning." What was I thinking??!

Truth be known, it was early before work and school....she would have probably eaten it later in the morning.

But it is still funny.

Ha ha ha

Thursday, February 07, 2013


Steve works all over Memphis. Apartments doing maintenance. He works in some bad areas and has seen the worst of folks.

Seems like everyday there is a crime committed at a property he works at. Murders, attacks, robberies .. You name it.

Please pray for his safety and that of his coworkers.

A very funny story....

Today Melecia gave mom a bath, washed her hair and curled it.

Mom told Melecia that she was going to wash her face and put makeup on. This is her normal thing. So after a bit mom came soaking wet...she washed her hair in the sink.

Good thing Melecia is patient and laughs a lot!

So they started all over again. Too funny!


Will be on Thursday, Feb 21st.

Thank you for praying.

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

The Iron and the Post Office

Two cultural changes. The iron is no longer in Monopoly...replaced by a cat.

And the Post Office will not deliver mail on Saturdays. I had two uncles who wrote to me my whole life..until they passed. They were Saturday letters. I loved walking down the drive and seeing my name on an envelope.


I have a laundry list of things I need to do.

Tensions have eased slightly.

Thanks for praying.

Doing right.....

I'm proud of Tori. After working late one night this week....she took a friend in need grocery shopping.

Good job girlie!


I'm waiting on surgeon to call. My gallbladder will be taken out. I cannot wait. I wish doctor could have done it today!


I do not like choose a size paper towels.

If you need bigger take two. Who uses half a paper towel?

Mom is.....

Wide awake. Searching for something. What? I don't know.

It took some doing to get her back in bed.
But now I am awake!

She and Melecia had a great day. Mom looked so good when I arrived home. I cannot say it enough I am so grateful for Melecia.

Welcome to the world........

Your backgrounds are so different.

You live in two different states.

You both are part of God's wonderful plan.

You both will crawl, and charm
everyone you will meet.

You have been and will continue to be prayed for.

Welcome to the world Piper Rose. Your grandmother, Kathy or Nannie as you will call her- I believe is awesome. She has anxiously awaited your arrival. I am blessed to know her. You are blessed to have her.

Welcome to the world Savannah Claire. Your grandmother, Carla is one awesome lady. I can't wait for you to meet her. She will teach you so much. You are blessed to have her.

Sweet girls. You will giggle, have milk mustaches, and decorate refrigerators with pictures colored in crayons. I pray God protects you...He loves you so much.

Welcome to the just got a whole lot better.

Monday, February 04, 2013

Explain to me....

I drive past several grocery stores, dollar stores, gas stations....

So why didn't I remember milk, bread and dog food BEFORE I got home?

Had to get back out...had a stomach "attack" - got sick in the parking lot.


Doctor appointment is Wednesday.

Sunday, February 03, 2013

Mom at Walmart

I can't believe I forgot to tell you this!

Mom and I went to Walmart yesterday. We checked out, all of a sudden as we were leaving mom yelled out, "Becky, you didn't pay." Several times.

Well, I guess Walmart folks believed her and I had to show proof of my receipt.

They did realize the Rice Krispies and bath tissue were paid for...whew!



Mom has a bad Saturday night. Plain out mean. She finally went to bed fully dressed and mad.

We had a good day, perm for her, grocery store and such. But then she turned on a dime, the hatefulness of the disease.

Pray Sunday is better.

Shattered glass....

Yesterday a lid from a long ago lost pot fell from the shelf I kept it--for just in case. It hasn't been used in a long time. It broke into what seemed 1000 pieces. I swept and swept. Extra work.

That lid has had me thinking. How often do we hold onto things mentally and emotionally? Holding onto them until the burden is too great and we shatter from the weight? I am so guilty of this. Instead of giving all to God as I say I will, I think He needs my help in carrying it. And like the pieces of glass I may find later with my foot, I will have pieces of anger, resentment, bitterness, lack of faith and trust that will leave small cuts and bruises. Or I allow them to accumulate until the burden seems too great.

I think I need to clean my shelves and my heart.

Saturday, February 02, 2013

Hen Parties

Dedicated to Carla. Thank you for your wisdom, advice and friendship. One lady I know who stays away from hen parties.

Women are relational. I am. I care about people. I relate well to people.

I have a couple of friends I can vent too..with complete trust.

With my experiences at work I've seen the ugly side of women. I'm sure I haven't been a shining example at times.

I took mom to beauty shop today and heard two women husband bash for a good while.

Admittedly Steve and I have had ups and downs. In fact we've at times been a roller coaster ride. And I am all too quick to point fingers and criticize.But I want to take this time to list some of Steve's good qualities. In no certain order. I'm bragging.

1. He appreciates a clean house and home cooking.

2. He would choose time with me over others. (I let life get in the way!)

3. He is loyal to friends and coworkers.

4. He enjoys Andy Griffin shows.

5. He allows me to change the channel at night even if he is watching TV.

6. He loves his sons.

8. He loves Tori and Sam

9. He allowed us to move mom in. Though he teases her a lot.

10. He remembers dates.

11. He doesn't drink.

12. He is responsible

13. He loves his dad and brother.

14. I cannot tell you how many folks he has helped out with heating and air. Knowing there was no money.

15. He is protective.

16. He is saved.

17. He loves me

19. He works hard.

And there are many others!

Appreciating words.......

Don't ever lose your appreciation of words .
Mom is forgetting the names to objects. She gets so frustrated.

Last night she kept looking for a BBQ grill. I finally realized she meant heater. She was cold.

I try to laugh mainly to keep from crying.
I can only imagine how mom feels.


Of course, I cannot sleep. Ugh.

I went to bed feeling so bad. I was sick and hurting. (Cannot wait until the 6th) I've slept off and on. I was hungry--I got up and fixed myself a grill cheese.

I hear mom up sometimes she gets up to check the time, go potty, or may be confused. I listen before I get up to talk to her. I don't want her to stay up. Ha ha

Thinking about my promotion this is a new department - I am creating policy manuals, I have picked my team, talked to each of them. Phone lines are going to be looped, it's a lot of work. This change has been met with resentment and anger by a few. I cannot figure out why. Hopefully over time they will see the benefits, etc. I guess they will learn to trust me. I've tried not to let it get to me, but I was hurt. But this is a good thing for my family. Answered prayer.

Sam is at a Royal Rangers/FCF camp. He is spending one night on a submarine. He was so excited. He has his phone with him and is sending me text messages and such.

Tori worked today and then jumped into school work. She does work hard.

I hope to take mom to get a perm today. Depends on how she is doing.

Well I hope to sleep.

Friday, February 01, 2013


I'm listening to Focus.

How do I get my family to step up and help more around the house?

I'm at wits end. Hmmmm??

New Job

I am Corporate Customer Service Manager!

Whoo hoo!