Monday, August 31, 2009



HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!


I MISS YOU LOTS!


A few quick updates.....

How I spent my 40th birthday. In the hospital! I was having super bad chest pains. Turned out to be super bad acid reflux and very low low potassium. All the other tests came back okay. I was so scared and ever so depressed.

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Kids have adjusted to school. They seem to be doing okay. Progress reports will tell a lot.
Tori has been getting a lot of hours at work and Sam is playing soccer.

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I am having a hard time working on Saturdays - it is very depressing leaving my family here week after week. I don't know how to handle it or if I can hold out much longer doing it-yes I know I have to work - and I am grateful for the job - I have to work into a positive attitude every week. Then I feel guilty for not being positive. What a cycle!

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My friend, Diane, is facing surgery soon. Love ya girl!

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I am having moments of depression. Nothing I haven't faced before. But it is overwhelming at times.

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Steve and I will officially be "together" for two years this next week. We started dating on Sept 8 2007. He will also be 4 years from 50 this week (46). I tease him about it.

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I need to clean house! And I am off to do so right now.

Monday, August 10, 2009

3 more days...

I will no longer be in my 30's. I will be circling a different oval on forms and such.
Shh...... You hear that?

Me either! There is not one TV on, not one radio, DS, MP3 player....the house is quiet. I've taken the house back! School is back in session today.

At least I know where Tori is for about 7 hours - she won't be on the road!

Oh, I know we go back to homework, misplaced shoes, lost agenda's, last minute projects, lunches and everyone trying to get ready at the same time every morning - but for today-Monday-my day off- it is nice. Now I am going to clean this nasty house!

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

-40-

I know it is a number and there is so much to do and experience. But in just a few days I will turn 40 and I have to admit I am struggling with it. Actually I am in a slump.

I have asked my family no "Lordy lordy...Becky is 40" stuff. I think that will throw me over the edge.

Steve's birthday is in September - we are buying ourselves joint b'day gifts - something for the house and we are taking a weekend away next week.

40 - the year of the mammogram. 40- all of a sudden more gray hairs are there. 40-an extra laugh line and too many pounds. 40-all of a sudden the term "mam" from the store clerk is depressing.

I will be strong though. Whew.
Back to School......


Yep - it is that time of the year again. We registered today. The first full day is next Monday.

Sam being ever so dramatic was going through the house last night.....saying...

"Goodbye Summer...it was short. Goodbye pillow...I will miss sleeping late." And so on.

I shared his comments with my friend Amy - she and her husband work hard as teachers. They had the summer off together and she said..."Goodbye clean house, goodbye homework free nights, goodbye home cooked meals..."

How funny.

Sam is an official 5th grader and Tori a Junior. I am going to work hard on being more positive and encouraging this year. And hopefully more patient!