Work has been stressful. Dental work painful. Caring for mom - it really is a long good bye. Kids growing up.
Last Saturday after one of the hardest work weeks of my life, I slept literally 16 hours. Steve said, I never moved when I was on the couch sleeping. I was by mom. She was comfy, dry, and safe. Water and snacks close by. I set alarms for meals, bathroom breaks and interaction. I slept so much the week I was home with my dental work that I didn't think I could sleep anymore - but I was wrong. I guess everything caught up with me.
Today was a very painful mouth day. Boy did I hurt. My gums were so swollen. I have rinsed with warm salt water several times. They told me it would take awhile and they were not kidding. I guess having every tooth, root, remnant pulled can take its' toll. Plus I have a healed hairline fracture from a hit I took from mom at some point on my right jaw. That jaw to me looks funny. What I have in my mouth is temporary..permanents are to come in 6 months or so. Or when I can raise up about $2,000. :/ When I make my living talking...it is hard when I sound like a mush mouth. I have been called, Vickie, Mickey, Betsy, you name it.
Hopefully I will lose some weight. I should. I can't eat that much! :)
Alzheimer's a daily constant in my life. It really is a long good-bye. Ups and downs. Twists and turns. I can change a depends and clean up a poop explosion without thinking twice. I can understand her chatter better than anyone. And she still says I love you.
Kids growing up. I missed so much when I was single mom. And now they are getting older. Don't get me wrong. We spent time together, read together, heck for six years before I remarried we shared one room - that is why we are close....but now I long for a vacation...something.
My coworker Christina's son has cancer. Hodgkin's lymphoma. Possibly stage 4. Tomorrow is a key day for tests, etc. his name is Doug and is 22. But he will start with chemo the tests will indicate further treatment.
A friend's sister has just been diagnosed with breast cancer. Masectectomy and chemo is her plan.
Please be in prayer for them and their families.
I'm trying to decide what I hate more Alzheimers or cancer.
On Sunday, I decided to grocery shop. I went to the store - made it to check out. No debit card to be found. Looked everywhere. I had to leave, Sam was watching mom and he had to get to work. I get home...find it...I get out with mom. The store had already put all my stuff away. (I called) I stop to get gas (broke my own rule and paid at pump) and reach the store. I had to push mom in wheelchair and pull cart. Hard to do. Not impossible. I finish shopping. I'm so flustered. Check out. Card denied. Try again. Card denied. Money is there I'm telling clerk and myself. I look online from my phone. Gas pump had hold on funds. So, I put some stuff back to get total down and a woman behind me calls my name. I know her from school, church and football. She pays difference of $46 dollars and says do not worry about paying her back. I was near tears, mom was antsy, I was embarrassed- but I knew money was there!. I forgot completely about all the stuff I put back. I get home, there is a bag on porch with everything I put back. I bawled like a baby. And because I was so flustered shopping with mom..I ended up purchasing two of a lot of things. That explained my extremely high total! Arrrghhh Here is mom after our trip. I felt the same. God provided. However He must think I'm certifiable!
And mom has this thing about pulling her pants above knees. Sigh.