Sunday, August 02, 2015


The senate votes on 1881  - basically defunding Planned Parenthood. The argument that women will not receive health care will not wash because of Obamacare.  Eyes have been opened, even those of the very liberal due to videos.  I was just sickened then became furious. Talking about the organs of those sweet babies like they were an item on a grocery store shelf.

Call or email your senators today.  Leave messages.

Friday Night lights in Brighton

Two more weeks.

Sam is on third row right by the coaches.  He does not like taking pictures.  Ha
They won their scrimmage game the other night 35-14.  Regular season begins August 7. This mom cannot wait!  Go Cardinals!

Washing Machine

In June - I wrote that our washing machine went out.  Well, we bought a new one. So nice.  I am so grateful and appreciative. A Maytag.  It senses how much is in washer and fills based on that.  How cool!  I am hoping to get a dishwasher next month - I know it is not a necessity - but I really like a dishwasher.  Spoiled I guess.

Mom broke her recliner - I found one on a sale sight. Fits her perfectly.  Then I found another for me.  I miss the big, get lost and snuggle recliner - but two clean good recliners for $50 not a bad deal at all.  We look hodge podge, but it matches our family.  We are what folks call a sandwich generation, I told mom's social worker - we are a triple decker sandwich with sesame seeds on top.

I like hodge podge.  bahahahahahha

Billy Graham quote

I love quotes.  Snippets of thoughts that make you think and feel. This was posted by the Zig Ziglar group - a man I was privileged to hear - he died not so long ago. 

And it is from Billy Graham.  I was blessed to hear him along with my dad when I was little. 


Though I do not watch his movies and such - this man is brining more awareness to Alzheimer's than most.  I appreciate that. 

Officer Down

Tonight a Memphis police officer and  retired Marine was shot and killed during a traffic stop.  The shooter is on the loose.  Please pray for his family and coworkers. 

I couldn't help but run through my mind as I watched Tori strap on her gear for duty tonight. If you ever wonder why sometimes there are  more than one police car at a stop and hands are on the gun, this is why.  They never know what they are going to face.  My heart aches.

The world is less tonight. Because one man was serving and another did not care. 

Car shopping adventures...we knew we weren't buying a Cadillac

Okay...I have to tell the adventures of  our very long day.

A friend recommended a group on Facebook - Midsouth cars under $3000.  Steve and looked at a dozen ads - trying to find a ride within Sam's budget. We found one.  I called the woman - she sounded so sweet, her Facebook page was clean and decent.  A new teacher, recently married, etc.  But they were in Memphis.  On Lamar.  Now, if you know Memphis, you know what we were going into.  Tori went with me along with a mechanic friend. Steve stayed home to watch mom, Sam had to go to work, but we kept him updated through text.  We had to meet the woman at Title loan place.  I should have known - but the pictures, her description - sounded so good - so we were going to give her the benefit of the doubt.  (never mind the prostitute hanging on the corner.)  We look at the car - mechanic friend looks it up and down - inside and out. And says do not buy it - it will be a huge problem - and he knew our budget and I asked him - if the pending repairs were terribly costly - he said "oh yeah."  The woman lowers the price - mechanic friend - still says no.  Sooooooo we leave disappointed.  I had to use the restroom. Did I mention we were on Lamar in Memphis - look it up!
We find a restaurant and run in there.  And then we head back home.  I was upset because this lady lied and lied and lied.  I wasn't looking for a new Camaro - I knew we were going to have to do some work - but good grief. Some of the stuff she said made Tori's mechanic friend look at her like she had two heads.

As we all head back (two separate cars) home - we all see different cars and stop and look at them or call.  Good grief.  I call on one car that I had seen - and the man was so nice and honest.  He said there were two people ahead of me, he went into detail on what needed to be done - all easy fixes - he said he would call me - but he had to give these folks who called him first the first chance to buy.  He was from here - and I appreciated that.  I stopped at another car - knocked on door.  The car was sold.  The young mom looked at me and told me, "there is no way I would have sold it to you - it would not have been right.  A mechanic's daughter just bought this." Again, I appreciated her honesty. 

Tori found one , she talked to the woman - set up a meeting. The woman tells Tori - oh yes, it is in excellent condition, blah blah. I guess guilt got to her - because she called Tori and said "well, it really isn't drivable."  arrrghhhhhh

Back to Brighton...bring home lunch for mom and Steve. Tori and I head to the home of the Passport. Four precious children are there. And a Hound dog named Jello. (How cute is that?) oldest child is in a cast, four wheeler accident. Mom is trying to coral kids and dog..I have cast boy lead me up a driveway that seems to be a mile long only because Jello and a toddler are fascinated by street. And they will listen to me. So away we go...the family just recently moved to Brighton. We reach the front we pass boxes and furniture cast boy (age 6) points out that he broke each piece of furniture that was on porch. I told him he probably doesn't want to visit my house. His toddler (3) brother disappeared. Cast boy gets Jello the dog in the house...I'm still looking for toddler boy dressed like a Ninja turtle. Then a neighbor comes out looking for her daughter not dressed appropriately at all...I tell her "I think she's at end of drive with their neighbor..she yells out get your *** up here." Sigh. I'm still concerned about toddler boy. Cast boy has a fishing net...and points out pool. And then princess the pit bull makes an appearance. We get back to mom and toddler girl in a tutu bathing suit holding moms phone and a huge baby doll. I tell mom toddler boy did not come back..she said "oh he's at pond." Whaatt? Tori is looking over car..battery was dead..we were told it could be because it has been sitting. I say fine..can you and hubby just drive it to our home? Mom said yes. Windshield is cracked and they lowered price because of it..because cast boy jumped on glass. Hour and half later..they arrive and Steve tests drives and we agree. Cast boy now has red punch drink and oreos. Toddler boy(still a Ninja turtle but safe) has red drink and honey bun, and toddler tutu girl just having fun. Nice family. Struggling I'm sure. But get ready BES cast boy is headed your way. Cute as his siblings with a little bit of Dennis the Menace in him.  I have a feeling he keeps his mom very busy.

We  have to buy a battery ... They told us we might. Sigh...And we are replacing windshield. But all in all it is a good ride. I am sure I am leaving some stuff out and not giving this day justice.

Sam is very appreciative and humble. Again, I ask for prayers for his safety, that he has learned his lesson and such.


Sam had a wreck.  His truck totaled.  He was not hurt.  No one else was involved.  He admitted he was being stupid.  He had been fishing with fellow football players and they took a short cut home on some back road I did not know existed.  He lost control, went into a ditch and hit a tree.
I was just sick when I saw it. The police officer and others seem to think he wasn't really speeding too much because Sam was not hurt, air bag did not go off, but he just lost control.   As you can see the front end totally screwed up and the driver side window out and the door could not be open.  Sam's side took the hit.  Did I mention I was just sick?  So thankful he is okay.

We were able to sell the truck believe it or not. Sam saved up his $ from work and his new job at Naifeh's (my favorite local grocery store) and we found this little ride yesterday.  We have to replace the windshield and it has some little things we gotta take care of - but he has a ride. The story involved in purchasing this vehicle is long and funny.  I was exhausted and sick of dealing with cars.  My friend Carla will tell you car problems and issues are from the devil and I believe it.  I didn't realize how much we went back and forth until I went back to dropping off and picking up.  Please pray with me that Sam learned his lesson and he utilizes common sense.  He learned a lesson, but he is still a teenage boy.  I am putting  Bible in his car tomorrow! It is a 99 Honda Passport.  Runs good, motor clean - like I said - small things that need to be taken care of - but it sounds and rides good.

It has been awhile......

Over a month since my last post - goodness.  So much going on and happening.

Mom is mom.  We are in the last stages - and have been told it could last for awhile.  I wish I understood this blasted disease. She has some very lucid and clear moments. I call them gifts from Heaven. 

We are in peak season at my work.  When I arrived at work Friday morning I had 242 emails - I don't know that was possible.  But I made it my determined goal to get them take care of and I did.  I was drained.  Each of my team members were.  Phones, emails, live chats - you name it.  Mercy.
And some people are so hateful to customer service reps.  Trust me, yelling, cussing and such will get you NO WHERE.

I am back to going through insomnia.  It is 4:16 am.  Wide awake.  I will probably fold some clothes and such here shortly. I have much to share and post.  I want to do them separately - because they deserve their own post. 

Happy Sunday.

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Elisabeth Elliot from 1983

One of my heroes. 

A beautiful thought

I needed this verse...

Or I needed to see and read. Then read again.


No words

Busy Saturday

Took mom for a haircut, then to McAllisters for lunch followed by yogurt and a pharmacy visit. She's done real well.

Getting her haircut
Enjoying a McAllister's spud

And loving some frozen yogurt

Broken washing machine....

Last Sunday our washer and dishwasher went out. We are focusing on the washer first. It costs $14 to wash clothes Steve the laundromat. Stephanie has been most helpful in taking moms stuff to her house to wash. Tori and Sam have friends who have allowed them to wash a little. But laundry is never ending. Steve the laundromat I feel like I'm at the Duggar's house

Mom is assisting today.

 The long line of machines. No wonder Rent/a/Center makes a killing. We hope to buy a washer this week.

Saturday, June 13, 2015


To my nephew Robbie, his bride Candace and their two kiddos. Abby (Robbie's daughter) and Miles (Candace's son) - the newly weds have done a great job with the kids. Candace is a great mom. And Robbie a dad. They surprised was supposed to be an engagement party!  Please pray for them as they grow into the future. 

Something to think about.....

Friday, June 12, 2015

Need prayer

Requesting prayer. So much to handle. And when will I realize to give all to God? Give my worries, problems and needs to God up front and not after I have wasted time trying to figure things out?

Focus on the Family

Great broadcasts as usual. Relevant in my life.  Touched my life this week in so many ways.

Hello from Barney...

We think he is quite photogenic.

Saturday, June 06, 2015

God is working...

In the life of my sweet daughter. Just confirms..raised right they will return.


Everyday I hear of a new person diagnosed with this disease. So many forms of it. I hate it as much as I hate Alzheimers.

McFarland, USA

A family friendly movie with Kevin Costner, based on a true story. A good watch! 

June 6, 1944

Their numbers grow fewer by the day. No doubt they saved the world with much sacrifice...

Still an idiot...

Have to say it. Ex is still an idiot. I don't think he will ever get it. 


I am battling depression and loneliness. Maybe the two are hand in hand. I feel so cut off from the outside.

I am not happy at work..the reasons so varied. I just don't know how to handle some things. Well, I have an idea, just gotta get things into place. 

I know it won't change it by saying it, but no family ever visits or calls to check on mom or me for that matter.  

I'm sure this pity party will be over tomorrow. But I do need prayers.

We just thought we were getting out.....

I had planned to take mom and I for haircuts today.  Her little body had other ideas. To no avail., could not get her moving and awake after my shower, she was clean, smelling and looking good.

Here she is. We both ended up resting..ok...sleeping all day. I guess we needed it. I just freshened up the house as to not feel terribly lazy.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Cleaning Carpet

I am cleaning carpet. I want new flooring or carpet!  

Yes, I know, selfish. 


Happy Saturday

Mom slept late...

But we are having a good day. 

Holding her own cup

Playing stickers

Thursday, May 28, 2015


Work has been stressful. Dental work painful.  Caring for mom - it really is a long good bye.  Kids growing up.

Last Saturday after one of the hardest work weeks of my life, I slept literally 16 hours. Steve said, I never moved when I was on the couch sleeping.  I was by mom. She was comfy, dry, and safe. Water and snacks close by.  I set alarms for meals, bathroom breaks and interaction.   I slept so much the week I was home with my dental work that I didn't think I could sleep anymore - but I was wrong.  I guess everything caught up with me. 

Today was a very painful mouth day.  Boy did I hurt.  My gums were so swollen.  I have rinsed with warm salt water several times.  They told me it would take awhile and they were not kidding.  I guess having every tooth, root, remnant pulled can take its' toll.  Plus I have a healed hairline fracture from a hit I took from mom at some point on my right jaw. That jaw to me looks funny.  What I have in my mouth is temporary..permanents are to come in 6 months or so.  Or when I can raise up about $2,000.  :/  When I make my living is hard when I sound like a mush mouth.  I have been called, Vickie, Mickey, Betsy, you name it. 

Hopefully I will lose some weight.  I should.  I can't eat that much!  :)

Alzheimer's a daily constant in my life.  It really is a long good-bye.  Ups and downs. Twists and turns.  I can change a depends and clean up a poop explosion without thinking twice.  I can understand her chatter better than anyone.  And she still says I love you.

Kids growing up.  I missed so much when I was  single mom. And now they are getting older.  Don't get me wrong.  We spent time together, read together, heck for six years before I remarried we shared one room - that is why we are close....but now I long for a vacation...something.


My coworker Christina's son has cancer. Hodgkin's lymphoma. Possibly stage 4. Tomorrow is a key day for tests, etc. his name is Doug and is 22. But he will start with chemo the tests will indicate further treatment. 

A friend's  sister has just been diagnosed with breast cancer. Masectectomy and chemo is her plan. 

Please be in prayer for them and their families. 

I'm trying to decide what I hate more Alzheimers or cancer.

Another one of those it could only happen to me stories....

On Sunday, I decided to grocery shop. I went to the store - made it to check out. No debit card to be found. Looked everywhere. I had to leave, Sam was watching mom and he had to get to work. I get home...find it...I get out with mom. The store had already put all my stuff away. (I called) I stop to get gas (broke my own rule and paid at pump) and reach the store. I had to push mom in wheelchair and pull cart. Hard to do. Not impossible. I finish shopping. I'm so flustered. Check out. Card denied. Try again. Card denied. Money is there I'm telling clerk and myself.  I look online from my phone. Gas pump had hold on funds. So, I put some stuff back to get total down and a woman behind me calls my name. I know her from school, church and football. She pays difference of $46 dollars and says do not worry about paying her back. I was near tears, mom was antsy, I was embarrassed- but I knew money was there!. I forgot completely about all the stuff I put back. I get home, there is a bag on porch with everything I put back. I bawled like a baby. And because I was so flustered shopping with mom..I ended up purchasing two of a lot of things. That explained my extremely high total! Arrrghhh  Here is mom after our trip. I felt the same. God provided. However He must think I'm certifiable! 

And mom has this thing about pulling her pants above knees. Sigh.

Mom relaxing....


May 6 Sam turned 17. 

Love this Song