Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Pictures from vacation...
Pictures from vacation....Smoky Mountains...of course parks were closed. Hmmph.
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Musings.....
This week I bought Depends for mom - she doesn't need them all the time - but it got to me and I busted out crying in Walmart. I guess it is another stage. Overall, mom is doing okay. She is still enjoying her babies, we have introduced Flash Cards, and she still cleans - all the time - literally for hours.
Please continue to pray for my nephew, Rusty, he is feeling the effects of Chemo big time. He feels so bad and hurts. Judy is not handling it well at all. She really isn't.
Vacation - we leave Monday - we cannot wait. We both are so tired - we are dropping off Sam at his dad's for a visit. He is on Fall Break next week. Before the trip he is camping with church this weekend. And when we return next week - he will leave on another trip to camp with his friends family. I am glad. We will have respite care for night time - Melecia is actually staying two of the nights. We are so thankful for that.
Tonight is Sam's last football for the season - the freshman finish well before the varsity. They will be playing at home. He has played in every game. He has done well. He was involved in a tackle this week - and another boy's ankle was broke - he was just sick.
Tori is one step closer to her career goal - I still cannot imagine my baby girl being a police officer. But then there are times - when I can see it clear as day.
Much on my mind - going to post a few separate things here separately - they deserve their own space!
Please continue to pray for my nephew, Rusty, he is feeling the effects of Chemo big time. He feels so bad and hurts. Judy is not handling it well at all. She really isn't.
Vacation - we leave Monday - we cannot wait. We both are so tired - we are dropping off Sam at his dad's for a visit. He is on Fall Break next week. Before the trip he is camping with church this weekend. And when we return next week - he will leave on another trip to camp with his friends family. I am glad. We will have respite care for night time - Melecia is actually staying two of the nights. We are so thankful for that.
Tonight is Sam's last football for the season - the freshman finish well before the varsity. They will be playing at home. He has played in every game. He has done well. He was involved in a tackle this week - and another boy's ankle was broke - he was just sick.
Tori is one step closer to her career goal - I still cannot imagine my baby girl being a police officer. But then there are times - when I can see it clear as day.
Much on my mind - going to post a few separate things here separately - they deserve their own space!
Sunday, October 06, 2013
Saturday, October 05, 2013
Go Tori
She never smoked here at home or around me and I tried hard not to nag.
She has decided to quit cold turkey.
Tori, I am so proud of your decision and I am here for you baby girl.
Go Cardinals!
Sam and his fellow Cardinals won Thursday night.
Love you Sam!
This was right after game. He had a couple awesome tackles. He played whole game and was wore out!
He took this picture with me after being threatened by another mom. Lol.
No broken bones!
Mom fell hard on Thursday night. Melecia and I took her to the doctor to be safe.
And eating a BBQ after the doctor.
She loved it!
No broken bones...just bruising and a cut. I was worried sick and felt so guilty..I was right there! But after I got her settled I saw that she had put lotion on the floor and powder.
Here is a pic of mom and Melecia at doctor. Can you see the love?
Mom waiting for X-rays
Praise The Lord ...no broken bones.
Monday, September 30, 2013
HERE WE COME
In just a couple of weeks....
We are taking advantage of Respite care, plan to enjoy restful, non rushing time.
1st Day of Chemo for Rusty
Today marks the 1st day of chemo for my nephew Rusty. And already changes have been made.
Initially - it was gong to be 5 days a week for three weeks - then a week off. Now it is 5 days one week, then two weeks with one day of treatment each. I am looking at this as a positive sign.
Specific prayer requests in regard to Rusty - and trust me cancer affects the whole family.....
They had a T-shirt fundraiser - and they raised enough to cover one month's of living expenses. I did not buy T-Shirts - we helped in another way. Other fundraisers are being planned and a website for updates - will be up and running soon. Really and truly we just need "living money" at the moment - the doctors have said they will treat Rusty no matter what.
He is/was living with his twin brother - his brother is a single dad - they split the bills down the line - Rusty is not working - no income - so his brother will be hurting a tad.
His truck - he cannot make truck payments or car insurance - no $ coming in. Short term disability has not kicked in yet - and it won't be nearly enough. His dad (no longer married to my sister any more) initially was going to help with this problem - but has decided he doesn't want too - not his responsibility. This is huge! I wish we could say we are surprised by his dad's actions - but we are not. Judy has been married to Charlie - who pretty much raised them - and he is awesome.
Judy & Charlie. Charlie does not work - he is disabled - his heart is below 30%. Judy is main source of income - with Rusty not being married - there are many times she may need to miss work. I am trying to get her approved for a laptop - so she will able to work from the Dr's office and home. I outlined it last night on what she could do - and I think it is a good plan. She is so funny - she refuses to call me her "supervisor" or "boss" - and when I am busy working on something here - she says...
"Hellooooooooooo" Working with Judy has been fun.
The younger brother Ryan - he is a worrier - like his momma. They all are close and I am so grateful.
The good I have seen come from this....
Though my sisters may never be close.......they are "talking" now via Facebook - and that is good. They really and truly have never got along - with them being 13 and17 years older than me - I was never around - and by the time I knew bit and pieces - I was grown. Pray God continues to heal their relationship - they actually grew up together! They knew the grandparents I never met. Mom and Dad were 40 when they had me - they knew our parents when they were much younger. They have more in common than they think!
Initially - it was gong to be 5 days a week for three weeks - then a week off. Now it is 5 days one week, then two weeks with one day of treatment each. I am looking at this as a positive sign.
Specific prayer requests in regard to Rusty - and trust me cancer affects the whole family.....
They had a T-shirt fundraiser - and they raised enough to cover one month's of living expenses. I did not buy T-Shirts - we helped in another way. Other fundraisers are being planned and a website for updates - will be up and running soon. Really and truly we just need "living money" at the moment - the doctors have said they will treat Rusty no matter what.
He is/was living with his twin brother - his brother is a single dad - they split the bills down the line - Rusty is not working - no income - so his brother will be hurting a tad.
His truck - he cannot make truck payments or car insurance - no $ coming in. Short term disability has not kicked in yet - and it won't be nearly enough. His dad (no longer married to my sister any more) initially was going to help with this problem - but has decided he doesn't want too - not his responsibility. This is huge! I wish we could say we are surprised by his dad's actions - but we are not. Judy has been married to Charlie - who pretty much raised them - and he is awesome.
Judy & Charlie. Charlie does not work - he is disabled - his heart is below 30%. Judy is main source of income - with Rusty not being married - there are many times she may need to miss work. I am trying to get her approved for a laptop - so she will able to work from the Dr's office and home. I outlined it last night on what she could do - and I think it is a good plan. She is so funny - she refuses to call me her "supervisor" or "boss" - and when I am busy working on something here - she says...
"Hellooooooooooo" Working with Judy has been fun.
The younger brother Ryan - he is a worrier - like his momma. They all are close and I am so grateful.
The good I have seen come from this....
Though my sisters may never be close.......they are "talking" now via Facebook - and that is good. They really and truly have never got along - with them being 13 and17 years older than me - I was never around - and by the time I knew bit and pieces - I was grown. Pray God continues to heal their relationship - they actually grew up together! They knew the grandparents I never met. Mom and Dad were 40 when they had me - they knew our parents when they were much younger. They have more in common than they think!
BLUH! STOMACH VIRUS!
Sam woke me up in the middle of the night - to let me know he got sick! Bluh! I don't do stomach viruses! I did better when they were younger - but now that kids are older - it is harder for me to stomach - but with all mom's doing's my stomach is a little stronger. :)
(And why is folks only get sick at 1:30 in the morning?)
I was Lysoling the whole house this morning.
Bless his heart, he hugged me yesterday - and I said "I am either cold or your are hot." So I guess he had fever. Call me mother of the year.
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He has been staying home more that what he used to. I think as he is growing up and his friendships are changing and growing. His best buddy - Ryan - is less social than Sam - and with him being homeschooled - Sam is having a hard time trying to introduce his friends to each other. I told Sam he will find the balance - Ryan and his family have been wonderful to Sam - please pray for Sam - I know it is not a big thing - but it is tugging at his heart.
Tori faced this issue after she started working and started college - high school, work friends and college friends - she refuses to hang out with negative folks or if they are anywhere close to ruining her career in law enforcement - they are out!
(And why is folks only get sick at 1:30 in the morning?)
I was Lysoling the whole house this morning.
Bless his heart, he hugged me yesterday - and I said "I am either cold or your are hot." So I guess he had fever. Call me mother of the year.
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He has been staying home more that what he used to. I think as he is growing up and his friendships are changing and growing. His best buddy - Ryan - is less social than Sam - and with him being homeschooled - Sam is having a hard time trying to introduce his friends to each other. I told Sam he will find the balance - Ryan and his family have been wonderful to Sam - please pray for Sam - I know it is not a big thing - but it is tugging at his heart.
Tori faced this issue after she started working and started college - high school, work friends and college friends - she refuses to hang out with negative folks or if they are anywhere close to ruining her career in law enforcement - they are out!
Sunday, September 29, 2013
RESPITE TIME---MOVIE
During our break away today - Steve and I saw this movie. Suspenseful - tough to watch - but good. The "F" word used a lot - but it makes you think - "how would you react?"
15 YEAR OLD BOYS
hmmmmm...what can I say about them. Sam is definitely different than Tori when she was 15. This man-child of mine.
He can have a smart mouth and quick temper - but regrets it. He will plop his big 200 lb self - size 12 shoe into my lap and say..."remember I'm your baby."
Yep Sam you are.
He can have a smart mouth and quick temper - but regrets it. He will plop his big 200 lb self - size 12 shoe into my lap and say..."remember I'm your baby."
Yep Sam you are.
Honest Feelings
This is what my life, or maybe my mind feels like. A boxing match. Feelings fighting each other.
Mom has a new medicine and I am telling you 15 minutes after she takes it - she is sound asleep - so I am careful to give to her only right before bed time - and you know what I feel guilty for enjoying the time - guilty for giving her the medicine. Is that crazy or what?
I can look back and honestly say mom has had Alzheimer's a long time - we just did not put 2 and 2 together.
I do pretty good on not resenting her, I hate Alzheimer's but I love her. My teeth have been knocked out - where she has punched me, jumped on my back from behind and pushing my head into a steering wheel - all these happened 2 years ago - a life time ago. Goodness knows we still have moments. I wish I had the $ to get teeth fixed. (having a pity party at the moment - can you tell?) I am hoping a dental makeover contest is coming up - like it did this time last year. I guess that is selfish. Otherwise - I just don't know what to do we are looking at 1000's of dollars of work. And it is not there.
She doesn't make much sense when she talks - she knows what she is saying, and usually I can decipher -and she can read - so that is good. She plays with her babies, still mops and dusts. She has managed to hide most of her socks -which is really about to drive me insane because I really thought I knew all of them. Unless they have found their way into the trash.
Then we have days she is so sweet and funny. The affectionate mom throws me off - because she never was affectionate when I was growing up. I knew she loved me - but I don't remember hugs, or kisses or even "good job." Thankfully my dad was affectionate.
Yesterday we spent about 10 minutes playing catch with a towel - she just laughed and laughed. So proud of herself for catching and throwing it.
When I tuck her into bed at night, she puts my hand to her cheek, and says "thank you for a lovely day.|" And it hits me, she doesn't remember any bad moments, sad moments, mad moments, she just knows love.
And when it comes down to it - that is what counts. Love.
Thank you God for loving me and allowing me to love.
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
In bed...
I'm in bed, but my mind is twirling.
Enjoyed NCIS tonight! Cleared emails and paperwork.
My heart aches...come on God...show up... Show out. I love you! Trusting!
Not gonna lie....
I am so tired. I am not sleeping. So make that exhausted to the point of sick. I can promise you regardless of the time I go to sleep - I will wake up at 2:30 a.m. and stay awake until 5:00 a.m.
I make the mistake of laying down after Steve and Sam leave each morning - and I have overslept two days in a row.
Rusty finds out results as far as what type of cancer....and such on Thursday. Friday is portacath. Monday begins Chemo. Judy is sick with worry. Is it wrong to ask God to show up, show out more of Judy than Rusty? Does that make sense? Judy needs a strong dose of faith and belief! Is that selfish? I so want Rusty healed - and question hourly why he is going through this.
Steve and I have a vacation scheduled to Gatlinburg in October - time away again. Next year I hope to plan a family vacation.
I long for a day to myself - a whole day. Selfish I guess.
I have much work to do - work was busy and I am way behind!
I make the mistake of laying down after Steve and Sam leave each morning - and I have overslept two days in a row.
Rusty finds out results as far as what type of cancer....and such on Thursday. Friday is portacath. Monday begins Chemo. Judy is sick with worry. Is it wrong to ask God to show up, show out more of Judy than Rusty? Does that make sense? Judy needs a strong dose of faith and belief! Is that selfish? I so want Rusty healed - and question hourly why he is going through this.
Steve and I have a vacation scheduled to Gatlinburg in October - time away again. Next year I hope to plan a family vacation.
I long for a day to myself - a whole day. Selfish I guess.
I have much work to do - work was busy and I am way behind!
Monday, September 23, 2013
Energizer Mema
Mom could have been the energizer bunny yesterday. She kept going and going and going and going. I was absolutely worn out. Worn to a frazzle. Had a lot of extra laundry to do because of an accident. I thought I would never finish with laundry. Geesh.
She played with "Pete the Repeat Parrot" She asked for her bird. So glad she remembered - her new phrase is "Top of the morning to you!" It has been so funny to hear it. Melecia said she is having a good day.
I finally got out to go to store - and I stopped for my Sonic drink. Nothing like Dr. Pepper with Sonic ice! Plus the break away.
Steve and I are taking a trip to Gatlinburg in a few weeks - utilizing respite care and such. This is a much needed break. I have a strong feeling we will be enjoying colors and the view than a lot of the touristy stuff.
I am cooking dinner in the crockpot today - found a roast on sale - so there ya go - threw in some potatoes. My hubby is not a casserole kind of guy. Not a soup/stew guy - and I am. So it always seems to be meat and potatoes. How to compromise??
Much on my mind, Rusty, work, my friend N.S., mom. It is hard to focus.
She played with "Pete the Repeat Parrot" She asked for her bird. So glad she remembered - her new phrase is "Top of the morning to you!" It has been so funny to hear it. Melecia said she is having a good day.
I finally got out to go to store - and I stopped for my Sonic drink. Nothing like Dr. Pepper with Sonic ice! Plus the break away.
Steve and I are taking a trip to Gatlinburg in a few weeks - utilizing respite care and such. This is a much needed break. I have a strong feeling we will be enjoying colors and the view than a lot of the touristy stuff.
I am cooking dinner in the crockpot today - found a roast on sale - so there ya go - threw in some potatoes. My hubby is not a casserole kind of guy. Not a soup/stew guy - and I am. So it always seems to be meat and potatoes. How to compromise??
Much on my mind, Rusty, work, my friend N.S., mom. It is hard to focus.
UPDATE ON RUSTY
Rusty had his biopsy today.
He did not sleep well last night because of pain.
Oh, how we are worried. And how we try not to worry.
Thank you for your continued prayers.
He did not sleep well last night because of pain.
Oh, how we are worried. And how we try not to worry.
Thank you for your continued prayers.
Friday, September 20, 2013
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