Today....

Today is gloomy and rainy. Mom is sick. I have not slept in two days. Insomnia.  Heck. I am battling loneliness big time. I’ll never understand why people don’t visit, even for thirty minutes. I know we are not that exciting, but it sure would help.

Starting next weekend I will have help with mom on Saturday and Sunday. Enabling me to get out and get back in church.  I think being in church regularly will do more for me than anything. I miss it.

I have plenty of things to do in this house that’s for sure. The garage even.  No gumption about me.

We are under a new hospice agency. I’m getting used to them and their way of doing things. I know their answering service is rude. Heck her cough sounds terrible.

Please pray.

Dear God,

I feel so selfish right now. So much chaos in the world, my problems seem minute and “dumb.”

My heart is breaking. It is broken. I wish I had answers  or understood. I know you are here. I know you see.

From Jabez...”bless me indeed..”