If you know anything about me - I do not rearrange furniture - one new picture or doo-dad can throw me for a loop.
Since mom has moved in - we've had to mom proof the house - I took out the coffee table - it was glass and she kept falling and tripping on it - she was about to give me a blasted heart attack. It found a good home with my friend Diane.
I have had to take the bookcase out of the hallway - she has pulled it down three times. It isn't a tall one - it was one my Aunt Evie gave to me. But it is heavy. We are buying a used tall one to take the place of the one in our living room - and will put all books there. (I have a lot of books) This wall is out of any walkway - and behind a chair - and so far a mom free zone. I put the one from the hallway into Tori's room - and put all her books on there (she had more than I realized) - and since I am at this point - I cleaned her room - it was a disaster - by the time I finished I was livid. Hmmph. Oh well.
In the hallway I put a tall reading lamp with a low wattage light bulb and the basket of mom's games and toys. So far no falling and tripping. It does leave the hall way more open.
We also bought a 42" high baby gate - with a swing door - should arrive tomorrow- we will put up between kitchen and living room - the kitchen is an accident waiting to happen for mom - falling, blinds, pulling stuff out of cabinets, you name it. I am sure it is going to be a huge thing for all of us to get used to.
Safety knobs on the stove, door knob covers on doors, stop signs that literally read "stop - this is hot" or "stop - stay inside," a baby monitor so we can hear her at night.
I say all this - because I have stepped out of comfort zone - and becoming more flexible. No room for complete OCD in my world. Or any OCD for that matter.
Mom has had a good week. I bought her some more pajama pants - Eyore and Hello Kitty ones from Walmart. We are putting her more in sweats and pj's if we are not going anywhere - for her comfort and our convenience It is easier to get her in bed if we don't have to change her - they are warm. A win win for everyone. But I am telling you know in her normal, sane days - she never would have worn pajama pants - no way! I have fun with it. I may go get a couple for pair - they are $5 - and with nighttime accidents - the are coming in handy.
Her appetite is better - she looks better and her color is better. She feels good - just doesn't make a bit of sense when she talks. She has a fear of the commode and a fear of falling. No clue how to handle that one. I am reading.
I know carpet/flooring is not a necessity - but in a way it is. I need flooring - I would like laminate - throughout the rest of the bedrooms and the hallway - easier to clean - it is in our living - room - just no $ right now. It is safe to say - our carpet is ruined because of mom's many accidents. I try to keep it clean - but it is a losing battle.
My teeth - this is the year - has to be - she knocked out another tooth the other day - caught be my surprise - I didn't see that fist coming. I just don't know how to approach it - when I was a finalist for the dental make over contest - the dentist said the best thing would be dentures or partials - because of the strength or lack of in my jaw bones - from years of TMJ. Plus they would be the most cost effective. I just feel so embarrassed and a failure. I got to get Sam going too - he is going to need braces.
My hormones are all messed up - this the week of my cycle - but no cycle yet. And I just called by doctor yesterday about permanent birth control. I still take BCP - but know I need to get off.
I went to doctor yesterday - my ear drum ruptured. Lovely - plus ears full of infection. OWWWWW. And the whole scale thing depressed me - got to rethink my plan - my clothes are looser -but the numbers are not dropping - I guess I am losing inches or something like that. geesh.
As you can see, like any woman - I have dozens of things on my mind.....
Thank you for allowing me to vent. Thank you for praying.
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