Emotions

Work has been stressful. Dental work painful.  Caring for mom - it really is a long good bye.  Kids growing up.

Last Saturday after one of the hardest work weeks of my life, I slept literally 16 hours. Steve said, I never moved when I was on the couch sleeping.  I was by mom. She was comfy, dry, and safe. Water and snacks close by.  I set alarms for meals, bathroom breaks and interaction.   I slept so much the week I was home with my dental work that I didn't think I could sleep anymore - but I was wrong.  I guess everything caught up with me. 

Today was a very painful mouth day.  Boy did I hurt.  My gums were so swollen.  I have rinsed with warm salt water several times.  They told me it would take awhile and they were not kidding.  I guess having every tooth, root, remnant pulled can take its' toll.  Plus I have a healed hairline fracture from a hit I took from mom at some point on my right jaw. That jaw to me looks funny.  What I have in my mouth is temporary..permanents are to come in 6 months or so.  Or when I can raise up about $2,000.  :/  When I make my living talking...it is hard when I sound like a mush mouth.  I have been called, Vickie, Mickey, Betsy, you name it. 

Hopefully I will lose some weight.  I should.  I can't eat that much!  :)

Alzheimer's a daily constant in my life.  It really is a long good-bye.  Ups and downs. Twists and turns.  I can change a depends and clean up a poop explosion without thinking twice.  I can understand her chatter better than anyone.  And she still says I love you.

Kids growing up.  I missed so much when I was  single mom. And now they are getting older.  Don't get me wrong.  We spent time together, read together, heck for six years before I remarried we shared one room - that is why we are close....but now I long for a vacation...something.