I write of my mother and Alzheimer's quite a bit. It consumes a lot of my time. I never know really from one day...one hour...one minute to the next what she...what I will be doing. I think I have said it before - to borrow from Forest Gump - mom is like "box of chocolates mom" - you never know what mom you have until she speaks.

Yesterday - I was getting ready to go to church - I got a call - had to go check on her. I cooked her breakfast - helped with dishes and clothes. She calms down consierably. I leave with in my mind that I will be back over later to go to evening services since the morning was shot. Well, no, she was totally confused and uncooperative. Get her to my house - she just calms down. I guess she was lonely - I don't know. I didn't feel good at all yesterday and I had visions of resting. ha ha ha

Friday & Saturday. We take her out to eat at her favorite restaurant - she gets fish -though she says she is not hungry - and proceeds to eat all of it. I take her to the grocery store with me - she walks the whole store with me - twice- I want her tired! We get to my house - with me being determined she is going to take a bath - she is worse than a 9 year old boy - but we get that done - hair washed and rolled up - dried - bed time snack and she passes out. Praise the Lord! She sleeps from 9:30-6 which is a long time for her. I take her home in the morning. Saturday we had plans to take Sam out to find some shoes and a few clothes that wouldn't break the budget - hmmph! He still need clothes -but we filled in a few gaps. Tori was able to take care of mom for me - until Sunday morning - whew!.

I love my mom. I know this is a season. But today I am just tired and discouraged. Oh, she can say some funny things, some sweet things and most defintely some shocking things at the least expected times. But for both my parents to go through this hateful disease just makes me mad some days. I guess I sound selfish. Physically mom is strong. Mentally she is a small child. She has days where is she is of sounder mind. But those days are becoming fewer and far between.

Thank you for your continued prayers!