I can remember those long days and nights at the beginning when I prayed she would just sit down for five minutes. When it seemed the medicine prescribed to calm her took forever to work. Now 1/4 th of that same medicine will knock her out for 24 hours. Her appetite is great. No problems swallowing. Mom will call me by name sometimes.
She is bed ridden. I did hold her up and she took three steps the other night. Remembering one foot in front of the other. I remembered when those skinny legs moved with her dust mop.
I don't know if this is the source of my sadness. I have a feeling my caregiving will end as empty nesting officially begins. What will I do? My marriage is not that great. I'm tossing around a second job and online classes.
If you want to know what my tonight looks like and what my tomorrow will be here are a couple of pics. Please pray.
