My Day

Began at 5:30 after being awake from 2-4.

Packed lunches. Made breakfast. Unloaded the dishwasher. Cleaned hall bathroom and picked up living room, kitchen and our room. After my shower, cleaned our bath. Gave mom med and left for work.

Tori broke down at noon. Had to leave work to get her to work. (Thank goodness it didn't happen last night.)

Drove back to work to finish 101 emails.

Leave work, get home, cook dinner, put up laundry, do dishes. Look at taxes, do Tori's. financial aide, pack up Sam for a camping trip, check homework folders, wash another load of clothes. In between mom loses her purse twice, her sweater once before she goes to bed.

And I can't sleep. Unreal

And a side note: I could care less if Beyonce lip synched. If our President skeet shoots and if Hilary runs in 2016.
I need them to come walk in my shoes.

Musings and tired!

Tori made it home safely last night - but not without grumbling. I had to put my parental foot down. Ha ha. I wish I could adequately explain to her how I listen for her car at night.

Mom has slept later this morning than the previous two mornings. And I admit it makes for an easier morning. Allows me to pack lunches and to get breakfast ready and do dishes.

I am tired. I feel sick because of it. i just had some toast and tea, prayerfully I will perk up. I didn't sleep last night, the weather and not feeling good kept me up. I could so go back to bed right now.

Late this afternoon or tomorrow my promotion will be officially announced. I am excited!

Sam is going on another camping/church trip this weekend. He's excited. They are going to sleep on a submarine.

Well I must get ready for work. Yesterday I had over 170 emails.

Tired

I'm tired and do not feel good at all.

We have approaching storms, I'm trying to stay awake but it is hard. I'd feel better if Tori was home, she's in class.

I'm going to gold laundry and pray for angels around the house and Tori.

Office Politics

I hate it. I try so hard not to participate in drama. I have three friends at work I am 100% comfortable talking to and sharing.

But as in any situation there are others who try so hard to hurt others. It bothers me. Sometimes my feelings are hurt. Their attitudes and words can ruin a day fast.

I need to be an example....I need to be a light.

Lord forgive me for not being a light today. Forgive my bitterness and anger. Come into our office, our phones and computers. We need you.

Am I a nag?

I am laying here at 2:00 in the morning wondering if I'm a nag.

I guess if I have to ask, the questioned is answered.

It is Sam. Here lately I feel as if I have to repeat myself a dozen times,until I lose it completely.

Geesh is it asking too much for him to do as asked the first time? Am I wrong? Is this a stage?

What do I need to do?

Whew!

Mom did not "misbehave" today. But she wore me out. I could not get out of her sight. Her day started at 5:30---she was super confused. She is forgetting more words. Or has a hard time putting names to objects. I'm going to pull out some kids books and flash cards to help with that.

We had an exhausting bath time..for me anyway. She loved being pampered.

We visited my sister for a bit and went to dollar store. We vacuumed out my car. I need to spruce it up more on inside. When we got back home, she helped me sweep garage and patio. Mention cleaning - she's all about it. Ha!

But I am pooped! I made beef stew and spaghetti, so I have a couple days of meals ready.

I worked on something for my new job.

I'm trying not to be discouraged about mom, because tomorrow could be totally different.

Thank you Lord for a productive day and the strength you gave me each minute to handle it . It was all from You.

Make-Up

My sweet daughter treated her mom to new make up.

Thank you girlie!

Saturday......

We started out totally lazy today. Mom slept until 9:00-Whoo hoo!

We had a late breakfast of eggs, toast and bacon. Mom did her usual dust mopping and such.

I covered the gray and my roots. Then she and I went grocery shopping. Of course she was starving as soon as we get in the car. So I get her usual Whopper Jr before shopping... it made for an easier shopping trip. It is aggravating on how much things cost! We have a favorite cashier at Walmart in Covington--Sheila. I seek her out. Mainly because one time she was so good with mom when we had a bad shopping time. I will wait in line for her..I let a manager know today how we appreciate her.

When we arrive home, Sam helps us unload. Mom decides she is hungry again. (How she doesn't gain weight is beyond me) so....I make her a sandwich..no fussing this time. I look around the house..and ignore it. Mom and I snooze. And it was nice.

After she went to bed, I clean and pick up and finish what seems like 100 loads of laundry!

It was just an average normal day. Mom had a good day.

Thank you God for normal. Thank you for mom's moments of clarity.

Awesome news!

I was going to wait and I won't give all details until "officially" announced.

I have been promoted and received a raise. God is so good. I did not apply for the position, they came to me! Whoo hoo!

Sometimes you wonder if hard work pays off. Or why keep trying? But it does! God provides. For years I was a single mom, and the majority of single moms I know, take pride in their job and providing for their family. That has never left me. Sure, I get tired, but I enjoy working. And when I was laid off 4 years ago to the date that I will start my new position, I felt lost. I thought I had found my niche. But through very lean hard years I depended on God more and more, and He never left me, even when I would turn left when He wanted me to turn right. I would worry, i would fret. I felt like a failure. I had to learn.

I will provide more details this week. I am so excited!

Lord, thank you thank you for this opportunity. Thank you for never leaving me. Thank you for your provision.
Thank you for the air I breathe. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for The Cross.
Forgive me for doubting, for worrying.
I love you.

Sleep or lack there of, $99.95 and doctor appointment

I have not slept. I have been awake pretty much all night. Ugh. And I was so tired when I went to bed.

During my night of insomnia, I've been flipping channels. And landed on a home shopping channel. For the low low cost of $99.95 you can buy a whole set of 2012 state quarters. Uh? You do the math. And I am sure someone somewhere ordered it.

I meet with surgeon on February 6. I am guessing they read the results. Thank you again for your prayers.

Momisms

Every morning mom will tell me to call her boss and tell them she is sick.

When I arrive home from work, mom will say "I have waited the whole day to see you!" I then have to kiss her cheek a bunch of times like you would a kid. She gets tickled.

We went to Burger King the other day, she wanted a kids meal. But got mad when the toy was a game and not a doll. Ha! She so loves the figurines!

She said the other day "Lord, the news is always the same. I don't think they say anything different."

Update

My gallbladder is not working. I will have an appointment with a surgeon to see about the next step.

They tell me that it is iffy if a doctor will agree to remove it.

Please pray. I just don't feel good.

There are other issues going on in our house...I'm a wreck. Please pray

Combat

I received a news break on my phone. Haven't had the chance to read it all. But I saw they are going to allow women in combat.

What have they been doing? I thought they were in combat.

Call me old fashioned, call me wrong...I just don't see how it would be beneficial. I so appreciate every man and woman who serve. Their sacrifices are great.

Women are made to nurture. Men made to protect. Are we taking another thing away from men? What are we as wives, daughters, sisters, giving up? What have we lost? What are we gaining?

Is it necessary?

Is it necessary to weigh every time when you go to doctor. Especially when you were just here?

I need therapy!

Waiting for results.

Vicks

Boy, did Steve miss out growing up. Surely my mother was not the only mom who would smother your chest in Vicks Vapor Rub, pin a kitchen towel inside your shirt at bedtime?

You would wake up a little clearer but suffocating because the towel would be choking you.

His mom did not do this. Obviously his childhood was deprived. Mom had this big green medical book. She read it all the time. I hated that book! She was constantly diagnosing everyone with something. Ha ha. Oh, how we laugh now about the book the youngest kid would sit on to reach the table. Dual purpose, booster seat and mom's attempt to be a doctor. Ha!

I don't do the towel thing but I believe in Vicks. Steve is sick and I just put some on him, we will both wake up clearer.

Mom

Tonight she was super confused mom.

Judy came over to pick up some extra dinner we had and mom was so excited to see her. The visit did mom wonders. And me too!

119

That is how many emails I had this morning at work. We were off yesterday, but 119 between Friday at 4:30 and today 8:00- that's a lot. Of course several folks thought they were having a crisis that would knock the earth off its axis. Ha!

There are a few unanswered as I am waiting on answers from others.

I wish I could tell folks to take me off some email chains. I really don't need to know a lot of the info, once my part is done, in my mind I'm done. No need to keep me in the loop. I promise!

I need to clear my desk of a few things tomorrow. I'm praying for a productive day. I have my dr appointment in the afternoon to get results.

Roe v Wade

30 years ago today.

A decision that changed the world.

(Listen to Focus today)

God forgive us.

Routine and a present with a bow

Life with with an Alzheimer's patient is a ride. Not one I totally enjoy being on.

But I've been listening to the sounds of my household tonight and somewhere along the way we've all become used to unlocking and locking that extra door, putting the knife up, making sure safety covers are secured on stove. At one time I resented these little extras now they are part of life.
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I don't feel good. Whatever stuff that I drank and received in an IV has done a number on me.

Mom acted ugly part of the night. She finally went to bed. So did I. Whew!

She knocked on my door. I had to go in her room. She was upset about how she acted. I hugged her, kissed her and prayed with her then tucked her in. She said "I love you Becky...you are my daughter." That was a present wrapped in a bow.

Wouldn't ya know it...

Mom so mixed up tonight. And very antsy and nervous.

I'm so tired and drained.

Please pray.